Thursday, July 09, 2009

a little raw


I was at a woman's conference on Saturday.

A great day with a room full of woman of all ages, stories being shared along with tears being shed. As one lady got up, she said - I don't know about you guys, but my bra is soaking wet.

What a thing to say and yet I could relate.

5 days later and I'm still a little raw from the things that were revealed to me. Actually, little may be a slight understatement.

And so, the things which have hurt need to be dealt with.

To top it all off, I'm now sick in bed with a chest infection.
I have to get out of this house and quite possibly this country. he he.

I've been reminded of my days working at the boarding school.... my passion for young girls. It all kind of ties together with what's been going on in my heart, and also the whole idea of going back to study.
I'm going to finally finish my teaching degree...

And I'm excited about it. A little confused as to why I'd get excited about something I don't actually want to do?! But maybe it's what I need to get back into a boarding school situation. While I don't want to be a teacher... I would love to be in a place like that again.

Which ties in with a few other things....

It's an interesting road.... interesting thoughts.....

For now... I just need to keep dealing with the raw stuff and get better.

Hope everyone else is feeling a little stretched. A little pruned. Alive!


"You make everything glorious and I am yours..... what does that make me?"
~ David Crowder.

2 comments:

Snaggle Tooth said...

Good for you to get the career jumpstarted again!
I don't want to be a teacher either, but had I done that, I'd likely have more income n better vacation time than the nothing i get now!

Using up the words.... said...

Snaggles ~ All of my books arrived today - very scary! But underneath the freaking out I'm so excited! Who knows if I'll ever teach, but I like the option.
It's so frustrating when we feel like we're in a dead end situation. I feel for you. Praying that you find a way to make a U-Turn. xx