Tuesday, March 21, 2006
It's the perfect day to be huddled up in front of the fire with a whimsical book to carry you away to some far away land.
Let someone else have the dramas.
Actually - it has been a productive day, and a day without dramas would most likely bore me, right?!
I've been reading a new book.... no, not a novel, and not one about relationships either. At least, not directly. hehehe.
Joyce Meyer's "Root of Rejection"
Would you believe it was my hairdresser who handed me the book when I went to see her a couple of weeks ago. Pretty cool when you can go see your hairdresser and have such an intimate discussion about what's been going on in your life, and have them pray for you and hand you a book. hehehe. I was blown away by it all when I left. It was of course, exactly what I needed to read right now. It's been hard going, and I'm only half way through. Digesting as I go.
Yesterday's revelation for me was the walls I had up to protect myself, were also keeping God at bay, and stoping my faith from really growing. Yeah, I knew that God wanted to protect me, but I didn't really realise that I wasn't letting him do his job of putting up the walls around me. When I prayed for protection, my thought didn't really include - Lord, help me let you be the walls around my heart, that I wouldn't have that feeling of rejection....that I would see it for what it is.
Anyway... it's been an eye opener. Reminded that we are never given more than we can handle.... and of course the whole.... he doesn't promise to make our life easier - but he does promise to get us through everything! The joys of the refining process, huh.
This week really has been one of blessings, and I've been blown away by it all. Also got kind of upset at God.... turning the big 3ohhhhhh and still being single is doing a small number on my head. Probably has more to do with the thoughts in my youth that I wouldn't have any kids after I reached this age. hmmmmmmm.... what did I actually speak over my life?! (2 days to go)
"Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you"
1 Thes 5:16-18 NRS