Just downing my coffee in quick gulps before I run out the door.
Still not feeling terribly awake. :)
I applied for a job yesterday.
I'm scared. Not so much that I have to go through the job interview process, but that God may want me here, while deep down I'm aching to get out of here.
Or is it that I can't figure out what my purpose is here.
Am I still meant to be sitting in a waiting room? The one that my life feels like.
I've never been one to sit around waiting. I'm trying to stay busy, but my life feels a tad empty, and I think a result of this had been my disinterest in pursuing my relationship with Christ.
I know, not something I admit easily. Not something I want to be true - but right now, I know that pride and hurt are there between God and myself, and in order for me to get "right" I need to get that out of the way.
In a strange way, I want to make myself accountable to you guys. Not because it's easier to be accountable to people who are not around.... but because I know that there are so many faithful people out there who will pray for me, and encourage me.
I'm telling my brother and sister in law too when I catch up with them at our next bible study, so I will be accountable to people here as well.
Thanks so much for being there.
"Difficulties exist to be surmounted."
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson