Wednesday, October 11, 2006

today... today....

Another one from work.

Just trying to orgnise my trip south. Yes... my first return to the beloved South island for my friends wedding next weekend. Exciting in some respects, not so in others.

I was supposed to be going to the wedding with benny, but his girlfriend is flying out from England - so that idea flew out the window. I don't think he even remembered at all, and hardly seemed to care that he wouldn't be around to catch up when I was down there. I'm going to go stay with his mother instead, and see her new house.
I asked Shane on the off chance that he would jump at the opportunity to come and explore some of the South island with me, and be draged along to a wedding. No go there. In fact - no one wants to come with me. Bummed! I won't know anyone other than Mike at the wedding, and I somehow think he'll be otherwise engaged, or rather, married!

I'd reached the end of my tether the other night. Just felt exhausted and uncared for. I want to go to the wedding, but not excited at the idea of being on my lonesome again. Have had quite enough of that for the next little while. Still... I want to make that effort. I do feel like I'm one of those people who are constantly making an effort for everyone else, but when it comes to me... no one has the time. Doesn't feel very nice.

I am looking forward to the drive, and seeing the scenery again. Not sure that I'll actually get to catch up with many people while I'm down. It's going to be a very fleeting trip. Just sorting out the rental car, and where I'll stay. Was thinking maybe Dansey's Pass again, or somewhere in Ranfurly. Either would be awesome!

I managed to get quite a few fantastic pics of my cousins wedding over the weekend - and have been trying for days to get them onto the computer with no joy. Hopefully I'll find some time tomorrow.

Kia kaha. xx

1 comment:

mreddie said...

Here's hoping you find someone to connect with - at least you will have the chance to connect with God and His beautiful creation. Will be looking for the pics. ec