looming....

Yes, the season to be jolly is just around the corner.... and with it comes the season of much baking.

For some crazy reason, I did it again!
Yep, little spicy men did fill up the kitchen over the weekend. It took me a while to get back into the swing of things this year, but I did manage to make a good little pile of the men to give away to clients and friends. I have a box full to be sent down south to the friends who write to say they are missing the baking fiascos. :)

I'm still in limbo status... wondering what it would be like to actually unpack and get my own computer out again. Probably not such a bad thing to not have the time, space or computer available to sit here for ages. Although I really have missed catching up on what's been going on with so many wonderful people.

Bring on the new year when I will have to decide should I stay or should I go?

I don't mean that in a bad way... more of an... let the adventures begin.

Exciting stuff!

Anyway... wanted to say HI.... to let you know that I am thinking of you, and just in case this doesn't happen again....until the new year that is;

A very merry Christmas to you all. Praying that you would have one filled with love, peace and blessings. And that you would have time to stop and reflect on all that this holiday is about.

Peace and joy.

xxxx

mucking around

I went and got a whole lot of photos printed last night, and must say I'm really happy with some of them. A few didn't come out with very good contrast at all, but I guess I'll just have to keep looking around at different places to get prints done.
I'm thinking so far, the online company has been the best.

Anyway.... now I have most of my pics on this computer - so I can start posting them again. :) hehehe

I'm heading over to the beach shortly for a friends 30th birthday. We're going cruising around the Tauranga Harbour tonight, so praying for gorgeous weather. It was a stunning clear night last night - where the stars were seriously twinkling. Hopefully tonight will be more of the same.
So, staying down there at some snazzy place on the beach with another friend that I haven't seen in AGES.

Tomorrow I'm heading up to Auckland to catch up with some friends from Christchurch who are up for the U2 concert. Will be nice to hang out with them for a couple of hours... no doubt at the airport - but hey, I'm willing to do these mad things!

I found this perfect little plot of land...... and think it would be a perfect setting for a bed and breakfast place.
I haven't rung to find out how much they are wanting for it.... knowing full well I can't afford to buy, but it's certainly something that's been placed on my heart. How does one go forward in living out their dreams???

Peace to you all.

thoughts flying.....

I realised that I hadn't stuck up a photo of Mike with Kate which is pretty slack. I need to go and find my memory card from the camera and fix that. I have just the pic too stick up here too.

It's kind of funny.... thinking about that wedding. I guess Mike really was the first of my closest guy friends to get married. The beginning of the letting go.
And in turn.... benny not coming to the wedding with me, and having his girl friend over here seems to have changed our relationship as well. I haven't heard from him since he was driving up to the airport, and I have left a few messages for him.

I'm not dwelling, just thinking.

New seasons are something that we have to deal with. I'm choosing to smile and remember all the awesome times, laughs and love that I have for these two people. Whether or not that is returned is ok.

I've had a bit of a mad week. Emotionally.

Maybe I'm just figuring out more about who I am, and who I want to be.
(Of course I know this is always going on - but I'm certainly more away of things right now)

In typical enthusiastic CJ form I got all excited about a master plan that had formed somewhere in my wacky mind. I had rung Shane last week to tell him about super cheap flights up to Hamilton this weekend. He's been saying he needs a break, and I figured a weekend up here wouldn't be a bad break for him. Anyway... he had all sorts going on this week - but we somehow started talking about the U2 concert.

I got all carried away looking for tickets, and flights, and........
He called while I was at work on Friday - and I was busy doing some orders, so said I would call back. When I called he wasn't around so I left a super long, excited, garbled message about tickets and flights and ..... yes, it was typical of me, but way beyond what most people are like.

Now..... I spoke to him briefly after that when he called while I was getting my haircut, and since then it's been a game of phone tag.

I felt like I had to ring him and apologise for my enthusiasm, and for the way that I got carried away with planning and everything else.... but at the same time, I don't want to. I don't see why I need to apologise for who I am!

So, I'm not going to.

I really feel as though I'm being led to who I'm meant to be. It's not a particularly nice walk. In fact, kind of lonely right now... as I stumble and compromise, and forget - but, I really do believe that in the end, I'll be more of who I'm meant to be.
And that feels good.

Eventually, I'll meet the people who understand, and get excited and want to do wacky things with me. Till then, I'll try to choose carefully and not take it personally when I get that funny look from someone, which clearly says - are you for real?

next wedding.....

So, Mike and Kate tied the knot.

I can't believe how long ago that was already.

I flew down early Friday morning, and arrived in Christchurch in time for lunch with my old flatmate Jackie and friend, JJ. Was absolutely gorgeous. Really girly chat, sitting up on the hill, catching up.
Certainly food for the soul.

I think we were there for over 3 hours. Then Jackie and I went to check out a movie. Laughed ourselves silly.... before I had to go and pick up the rental car.

The adventure continued from there......

Because the wedding was in Alexandra (about 5 hours south of Christchurch), I had arranged to stay with Ben's mother in Geraldine. Was quite lovely, as she's just moved, so I got to see her new abode, and catch up with her on everything that had been happening.

The next day was a slow start before I got all dressed up, and took off on the next leg for the BIG day.

Arrived with time to spare, and got to have a quick catch up with Mike.

I don't like my chances of ever getting another photo of him dressed up..... so had to grab a few.

It was a gorgeous day, and the ceremony, lovely.

I actually got to meet Mikes old flatmates, who I'd obviously heard alot about - though funnily, they knew very little about me! Anyway... it was quite lovely to meet them.

Hillary and James. I actually need to write to Hillary. We have big plans on catching up at some stage. Hopefully we can do that.

As it turned out, it was fine not having ben there to keep me company - though I haven't heard from him since he called to say he was sorry that he stuffed up. I guess he's too busy with Sarah. His mum was hillarious about it all. She couldn't believe that he would just blow me off like that. Ah, but that's ben for you. Pity. It would have been nice to have caught up on everything, and heard about his big adventures. It just hurt that I wasn't important enough to make that bit of an effort.

Anyway... as is always the way, when you're thrown in those sorts of situations, you make it work, and I guess you're that much more likely to make the effort to meet the people around you.

I stayed the night at Dansey's Pass... which was awesome. It was the most amazing stary night you could imagine. Just blew me away that the stars could be that much brighter!!!

The next day I drove back up to Christchurch, and ended up having a very improptue dinner at a pizza place with some friends. And wow... was it nice to catch up with them!!!!

There were a few tears when I had to jump on the plane and leave Christchurch again, but I know this is where I'm meant to be.

I'll be feeling much better about it all when I've got some friends. When my phone rings. And when I don't have to go and do everything on my lonesome. hehehe.

The joys of growing up, huh.

The quote of the week.

"Pain is God's megaphone" ~ CS Lewis

playing... catch up.......

OK.... so I've actually got some spare minutes, and I don't think anyone is going to come along and say they need to use the computer, so I'm playing around.

You'll have to give me some feed back as to what the thoughts are on the new look.

Wedding....

The boys, waiting.



The Arrival!



It was all absolutely Gorgeous! What a setting for such a special day.


Convoy.....

The wedding was actually on the beach you can see in the distance. Was classic driving back across the farm.....

apologies....

Lots of them flooding this page.

To say that I've been negative would be an understatement.
To say that I've been delighting in a pity party would be true.
To say that I've allowed satan to steal my joy would be also.
And to say that I've done very little about it......

just embarrassing.

Would someone please give me the kick up the bum that I so desperately need.

And then, maybe.... whisk me away for coffee so I can use up some of these words I've been harbouring. hehehehe

Thanks for the prayers. They are seriously needed right now.

today... today....

Another one from work.

Just trying to orgnise my trip south. Yes... my first return to the beloved South island for my friends wedding next weekend. Exciting in some respects, not so in others.

I was supposed to be going to the wedding with benny, but his girlfriend is flying out from England - so that idea flew out the window. I don't think he even remembered at all, and hardly seemed to care that he wouldn't be around to catch up when I was down there. I'm going to go stay with his mother instead, and see her new house.
I asked Shane on the off chance that he would jump at the opportunity to come and explore some of the South island with me, and be draged along to a wedding. No go there. In fact - no one wants to come with me. Bummed! I won't know anyone other than Mike at the wedding, and I somehow think he'll be otherwise engaged, or rather, married!

I'd reached the end of my tether the other night. Just felt exhausted and uncared for. I want to go to the wedding, but not excited at the idea of being on my lonesome again. Have had quite enough of that for the next little while. Still... I want to make that effort. I do feel like I'm one of those people who are constantly making an effort for everyone else, but when it comes to me... no one has the time. Doesn't feel very nice.

I am looking forward to the drive, and seeing the scenery again. Not sure that I'll actually get to catch up with many people while I'm down. It's going to be a very fleeting trip. Just sorting out the rental car, and where I'll stay. Was thinking maybe Dansey's Pass again, or somewhere in Ranfurly. Either would be awesome!

I managed to get quite a few fantastic pics of my cousins wedding over the weekend - and have been trying for days to get them onto the computer with no joy. Hopefully I'll find some time tomorrow.

Kia kaha. xx

at work

Sitting here in the office, on what is really such a gorgeous spring day! The sun is beaming down....

Quick update, as I doubt I'll get a chance to find a computer this weekend.

Thew news I had been waiting on. I had an interview with a company that I used to deal with a few jobs ago. I actually had applied for a position in Wellington before I moved. Ended up being second for that job - they gave it to a guy with slightly more experience. Well.... they approached me to see if I would be interested in the same position based back in Christchurch. Crazy huh. I really was wondering what God was upto. Went through the interview process, and again... they decided to go with an older guy who was already down there and had been previously working for the competition, so was already very familiar with all the products.

Spoke to the HR lady today, who I've got to know quite well, and if nothing else, I may have a new friend there. :) She was incredibly positive about me and my experience. She had writen an email to me after the interview to say the guys thought I was fabulous, and they certainly raved about my positive attitude, and personality. Alas, it wasn't enough to get me the job. However - this just means I am meant to stay in the Waikato, and around the family. I did think it rather strange that I may have to move again - but at the same time, I haven't unpacked yet, and still feel very out of place... mostly just the lack of friends though.

So.... time to put down some roots? hehehe. At least time to unpack. I'm so sick of not having my things around, especially the computer. Although it does make me realise that I really don't need as much as I have. Would be different if I did have my own house though.

Not sure about where to live? For now I'm away most weekends... tis the season of weddings AGAIN. :)

Hope all is well over the other side... enjoy Fall for me. Still my most favourite season.

Blessings

news....

Just got a txt from brother Tamati to tell me that Tessa has started contractions. Yes, baby Evita Mary is on the way.

Meanwhile... I'm also waiting for my phone to ring regarding the last bit of madness to go down. Hopefully I'll have lots of news to share soon.

For now... the PPP of last week. Mum and I went exploring. There is a stunning walk following a stream to the spring where it all starts. We didn't quite get to the end - since it was going to get dark, but we walked for a good few hours, and the colours were fantastic.



I want to try and kayak it later in summer, and just see how far you can go. It just happens to be the same stream that is the boundry of a peice of land that I think would be the most perfect location for a backpackers! Anyone any good at drawing up business plans? It's about time I got serious about figuring out how I'm meant to do this.

Wanted to say a HUGE thanks for all the gorgeous and encouraging words you've left me. I so appreciate it and all your prayers. I know God is putting me where I need to be, and I need to trust that.
I came up with an anology today as I was driving through the country side.... there were a bunch of trees still clinging onto the winter leaves, all dried up and brown while others are starting to show off this seasons new green. We can be that way in life. We can cling on to things of the past - the dried up and dead parts of our life... which in turn means that we can't start to sprout the new leaves - the new things in our life. God only has the best planned - but can't force us to let go of the dead leaves. Instead we have the free will to decide. Will we hold onto the old, or spring into the new? My old flatmate used to talk about loping off the apple... getting rid of the bad fruit in our life. God likes to prune us, just as we do fruit trees so that we can produce a plentiful harvest of the best. Why would we not want that?

Just me pondering and realising. Spring is here... and I pray for an awesome harvest!

some more....

The sun set was taken the same day as the other two... the day of the mighty walk around the mount.



The other was taken up on the Coromandel. WOWEEEEE, it is so crazily beautiful to drive around that area. So amazing!!!
I want to go and explore lots, but having a few issues these days.

Yes, it's been another tough week. Lots of things being brought up that I'm just not dealing with terribly well.

The whole friends thing - or lack there of.
I don't cope well when I lack people to talk through the big things with. And as much as I enjoy talking on the phone, it's not working.
Part of the problem is the two people that I probably talk to the most, and really nut through things with are both overseas right now. I haven't lived in the same city as either, so don't often get to catch up... when we do, we always have super fun and somewhat crazy times. It's not even like I talk to them that often... benny dissapears for weeks at a time, and often doesn't have reception when he's working, and Shane I probably talk once a week at the most, unless big things are going on in our lives.
They do both keep me sane though....
Yes, I have other friends, and I love them dearly, but it's different.

I know I need to call some of the others though, and seriously ask them to pray with me on some of these things.

Yesterday, I hit a wall.
I had organised to meet an old flatmate who moved up here last year. We were just going to have coffee and catch up. I got a phone call while I was driving as well from this other guy - the one that I got all excited about as being a perspective friend. He was actually heading in the same direction as me, so suggested we meet up along for the way for a coffee. Yes, I got excited!
However... we managed to zoom past eachother, and that was the end of that. I offered to come down and see him in another town on my way home - though he said he would call - he got caught up and that was that.
Oh well... headed off to have coffee with old flatmate, and wouldn't you know it, she didn't turn up.

Yeah.... Satan had a feild day on my head! Nobody wants to be my friend. I must be a horrible person. Not worth knowing. Pathetic. Needy.
The words are still spinning around in there, though I'm sifting through it all, and trying hard to feed it some good food now. It's always easier to believe the bad stuff though.

Rejection and I.... not good.

I do take everything far too personally, especially when I don't know the people that well. I can handle it now when people I've known for a long time blow me off... I know where they are coming from, and the reasons, and I guess you just get a feel for where the other person is at.
Now, i second guess everything.

I actually did get to talk to the guy today. Now I realise that I have been selfish and totally self absorbed about where I'm at, what it is I need.
I'm saddened by the fact that he's not in the space to get to know me. I'm not used to having people reject my friendship.... not when there is that instant connection like that.... the whole sit down and talk, and feel as though you could share anything with them.
It saddened me more to hear that he felt he could talk to me, that he had already shared more with me than most people knew, and yet.... thats pretty much it.

Will he miss out on living simply because the fear of getting hurt is too great.
I hope not.

So...that's the space that I'm in now. It will get better. It is just a season. And God is in control!

some pics... at last!

At last. I've given up on waiting for my computer.... so thought I had better check out some of the latest pics that I've had sitting in my camera.

This was a couple of weeks ago. I had to head over to Tauranga for work, and had arranged to meet this new friend of mine at the Mount for coffee. He ended up having a horrible day, so I thought a walk around the Mount would be a good thing to blow away the blues. I of course hadn't brought over any shoes for walking... so declared I would do it in bare feet. he laughed... but off we went.

This was about half way.... and about this time my feet were SORE!
It was little gravel bits the whole way round. I jumped from grassy spot to grassy spot, but they were littered with little stones too, so didn't help much.

HOWEVER, the fact that it got my friend laughing at me, and forgetting about the bad day he'd just had made it all worth while. That, and we got to watch the gorgeous sunset, and a HUGE ship head out to sea right in front of us too.

beginnings..... and endings....

I'm feeling like a strange in my own little world.

It's been ages since I last posted anything, or even sat down to read what's been happening for others. Slack!

Things are still packed up, and in a way it feels like my life is on hold. Perhaps my own doing?
I'm enjoying the farm. The fresh air. The mooing. The crowing at 4am, or 2 if the moon is full. The Meows and barks. And the quiet neighs from the goats. The horses do seem to be the quietest, while also the main population of the farm. I guess they are a contented bunch.

The job is going well. I've learnt so much already, and yet not nearly enough. I've had meetings upon meetings with big wigs from big electrical companies, and have to say, I've been so blessed with the number of wonderful people that I get to go and have coffee with. :)

At the same time though... I'm more lonely than I can remember ever being. I'm sure I felt this way when I first moved to the States, but this time, I don't know? I got a call from a very old friend who used to live here. He's now living in Australia, working as a chaplain in a posh school, and loving it. I was in a meeting when he called, so when I got out I got to listen to his message and quite promptly burst into tears. Yeah.... dramatic, huh! hehehehe I had to get over it pretty quickly, as I had other clients to go and see right then. He called later, and we chatted away which was wonderful.
It's like I've gone back to that fearful, fake me. The one who can be friendly with anyone. Can chitchat and ask a million questions about someone. BUT, I don't let my guard down often. I almost feel like I'm a snob. There are very few people that I meet and instantly click with..... so that I actually really, really want to get to know them.
It sounds quite calous when I write it like that. I'm not. I like to give people my time, and love to get to know them..... but it's often a long process....
There are those odd moments when you meet someone and you instantly want to spend time with them. You feel like they understand who you are and where you are coming from.

It's my greatest, deepest fear...... that I'll be misunderstood for the rest of my life.

I've met one person that gets me most of the time since I got up here... and after being alone for over a month, I think I might have just gone a touch overboard and freaked them out completely.
So... while they may have understood me a little.... the desperation for me to have someone to talk to may have just been too much. hehehe.

Does anyone know about the Marshmallow experiment??? Yeah... would I be able to wait the 20mins??? Right now, doubtful.

Anyway..... the topsy turvy world will continue to spin at an incredible speed. I will continue to ask questions, and to seek wisdom, and try my utmost to leave it all to God. I suspect that this vulnerable state is where I'm meant to be. And I've got to let go of people, and fill the void with Him.

In his hands.
xxx

contiues....

So - the job.

I'm now a rep for an electrical cable company.

Can you get any further away from kitchenware?
I think not.

I've had just over a week working there, and while the first week left me feeling more life a fish out of water than anything else. This week, I did a few trips, and got to see some of the new scenery - which was great! and I guess just began to get my head around what i was supposed to be doing.

We deal with three types of cable - House, Marine and Auto.... so, i get to go around to all the Marine places, all the contractors and electricans. Makes for alot of variety - but also for alot of learning!
I'm beginning to understand the marine and auto side of things - but when I've had to talk to the contractors... yeah, no idea. And I'm trying so hard not to have that blank look on my face. Sometimes I probably pull it off too well, and that just makes it all a whole lot worse.

Anyway... I'm surviving, and enjoying the new challenges, and so looking forward to God showing me where this is going to go. Right now, the picture is just a little sketchy.

happy weekend to all.
And Mr Ed - hope you are having a fantastic holiday! Where are you????

New Beginnings.....

(picture of mother and daughter. My two girls; left Tui's Love Song and JMF Beam Song on her 21st. (paddock name is Tui and she's our foundation mare from canada)

I still haven't unpacked my computer.....

I'm still living off of the floor... at least, for the most part - which sounds worse than i think it is, although... bring on the day when I can unpack my clothes and get them out of drawers and not pick through things on the floor. hehehe.

I have found a job.....

I have met some people.....

I have stopped sneezing......

It is still raining......

I am loving my family.....

And, God is, as always so good!
(Our pastor would always say... God is good all the time and all the time God is good!)

This was officially my first weekend. After starting the job on Wednesday, a nice day to begin a working week, I must say. And I got my haircut, and went to a party on Saturday night.
Yes... life is really beginning to swing along now.

I'll have to post about the job in another one, so I don't loose people here. It is pretty funny.

Hope the weekend has been joyous!

Arohanui. xx

finding my feet.....

This was the stunning view that I wake to most mornings here. Totally gorgeous winter mist.

It has been raining several cats and dogs too though. Driving around on the farm bike in the rain through the mud has prooven to be a great way to spend ones time, and ensure that you have no clothes to wear for days afterwards. (Can't get any of the washing dry - and over here, it's all about hanging out the clothes on the line to dry. )

I got home from a job interview, and mum had gone to Auckland to check on a horse, so I was left to feed out. Got up to the cows, and wohooo - there was our first calf! It had just been born, and was so cold and wet. (Raining again this day!) And I had to get it out of the paddock with the other cows. So... zoomed back through the MUD to get the trailer and dad, who had just got home to do our little rescue mission. Managed to get it out with only one other cow who jumped the fence, and up to the stable paddock. Excitement plus! hehehe.

Calf is now doing super well, and we've picked up another one to keep the mother busy. Hopefully it won't be long before she accepts it as her own, and the rest of the cows are calving too.

The job interview - first since I moved up here, went really well. It was for a company that I worked with previously, so I know the ins and outs pretty well, and it would just be absolutely perfect for me right now!
I have a second interview on Monday - and just really praying that this is the ONE! :) I know God has it all under control though.... if it's not the right job, can't wait to see what is the right one. hehehe.
(I'm trusting, along with my family that this is the right one though!!)

There has been a little chaos in the family, but the fact that I moved up when I did has just shown me that God's timing is so perfect. :) You know that whole... take a step, and I'll begin to reveal the plan that I have for you - but you have to take that first step. I guess I forget how God needs us to show our faithfulness before he can start to move. I read somewhere that he knows, if he were to show us, or tell us the plans he has for us, we'd run a million miles away, because, as a full picture it looks way too scary, but when he shows us bit by bit, as we're ready, and as we're walking it out - we can then handle it all!
Makes alot of sense.

Just cooked up a huge feast, which of course means I have a big mess to clean up. So I'd better get to that.

Hope everyone is doing super well!

Prayers and peace.

xx

seasons....

All of my stuff arrived today. I hadn't even been over to the other house to see how I was going to fit it into the garage.

I was woken by mum this morning asking me to come and help with a horse which was going to be used as an example of a Morgan at a Judging clinic with a Judge from Kentucky. I was awfully blurry eyed.

My brother's 21st was last night, and he'd gone out to pick up a Keroeke machine for the night. It was hillarious!
Of course, mum was all worried that we would be kept awake into the wee hours by the kids. Hmmmmm.... interesting thought. As it happened, mum and dad were the last two to put down the mics at 2:30!

After putting all my stuff in the garage, I came home and picked up JJ and we headed into town to check out my old favourite. yes, Metropolis is back in my life. It was probably one of the first cafes to win me over back when I was 15. It's changed a wee bit over the years, but still amazingly good food! And resonably priced to boot.
It lacks the view that my CUP has.... so I don't think this will become my new Sat morning hang out.... but it was still good to head into the big smoke. Feels funny to know this is my new home. I don't think it's really sunk in yet - since it's been so busy since we got here. Next week will be slightly more interesting. Especially since I have to get serious about the job hunt.

The last potential job crashed last night. While the manager was impressed with my CV, they are wanting someone based in Tauranga - and I'm just not prepared to pick up and move, even if it is only an hour away. God's put me here, so here I am! I know something else will come up, and they've already said that there are always jobs opening up, so maybe that one will still work out?

Right... off to go see horses, and try to figure out who is who?!

Seems strange not being able to post a pic - but my computer is happily stored now.... so for now, it will be words only.

Be blessed!
(Thanks so much for all the encouragement and prayers too!!! Most appreciated)

the path home....

Arrived up at the farm tonight!

This week has been absolute madness... think I've had about 10 hours sleep for the whole week, working, packing, cleaning, driving, saying goodbyes.....

Tuesday night was a huge blessing. To hang out with close friends, and laugh till we were crying, and eating yummy dessert - how could it be wrong. Jacx wrote me a poem, which of course brought more tears, but was so beautiful.

The drive began, pretty much on schedule, got down the road and realised I'd left my duvet behind (Having packed my sleeping bag).

But from there, it was a sweet drive. There had been mutterings of snow on the way up, but all good. Arrived at the ferry - which had been closed all of the previous day due to 7 metre swells, and was abit worried that today would be more of the same, or that there would be a backlog of people trying to get across today. All good though. We were late, and the rocking was significant - but I loved it! The waves crashed up on the windows alot, but didn't feel sick at all.

Arrived to torrential rain in Wellington, and huge winds, which is pretty typical. Was supposed to meet a couple of friends for drink after work, but the ferry was over an hour late - so that didn't happen. Instead it was off to dinner with another friend. We decided to get brave and walk...... minus an umbrella - because they are just a waste of time in that city! Would someone like to come up with a blow proof umbrella?

Italian was the order of the day, and WOWEEEEE, what an amazing meal! Company was of course quite brilliant too! Crawled into bed, only to get a call from Shane to ask if we had a spare bed.... there had been another slip on the highway home for him, and he was stuck. he of course couldn't turn around... and in the end, only sat there for 45 mins while they cleared the road. Poor guy... today sounded quite tough too.

Today...we woke to beautiful sunshine. Absolutely opposit to yesterday. Quite blissful. Walked around to meet the friend that I was supposed to meet the night before, and had a scruptious coffee... really good catchup. Couldn't have asked for a better time in Wellington. (there was massive flooding further North... with alot of slips, and rivers overflowing, several people being moved out of their homes... it's terrible.)

From there it was pretty much straight home. We stoped for more coffee - not so great, and gas.... and made it up here in about 7 hours.

The animal smells met me, Mandy rolled in something especially for my welcome - and it just feels like home.

Jiljane and I talked on the way about God's purpose for our lives, and how this next season is pretty huge, but also about the peace, and the excited, scared feelings - but also the not too worried one. I know this is the next step. Step to what - that I don't know?!

BUT.... I'll figure that one out as I go. A ship cannot be turned while sitting still....

More to come... but for now, bed.

Peace!

The light house.

blisssssss.....