Tui's Love Song.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
slug...
kinda awake here.... kinda!
have had my coffee, which obviously hasn't quite kicked in yet, and a chocolate croissant, which I must say.... wasn't as good as it looked!
and now....now I guess I need to face reality.
That I have a whole lot to get done today, and little motivation to get there. HEHE
Most exciting. Getting pics developed! :) Yes.... I'm looking forward to seeing all these ones in the real fleshy state! And maybe, even framing some of them? Actually, I'd really like to get them enlarged and mounted. Have a couple of cafes in mind for some of them to go to. Am I brave enough to offer my stuff.... the fear of rejection kind of kicks my butt here! Maybe I'll wait until my aunt gets her cafe up and going... sometime next year. hehe. Then I'll have more to choose from too.
For now... gotta get the card cleared for the wedding.. pre, post, Tawhai! I think I've lost the plot when it comes to that gorgeous boy.
Can't wait!!! Icing on the cake... chilling out with my horse!
have had my coffee, which obviously hasn't quite kicked in yet, and a chocolate croissant, which I must say.... wasn't as good as it looked!
and now....now I guess I need to face reality.
That I have a whole lot to get done today, and little motivation to get there. HEHE
Most exciting. Getting pics developed! :) Yes.... I'm looking forward to seeing all these ones in the real fleshy state! And maybe, even framing some of them? Actually, I'd really like to get them enlarged and mounted. Have a couple of cafes in mind for some of them to go to. Am I brave enough to offer my stuff.... the fear of rejection kind of kicks my butt here! Maybe I'll wait until my aunt gets her cafe up and going... sometime next year. hehe. Then I'll have more to choose from too.
For now... gotta get the card cleared for the wedding.. pre, post, Tawhai! I think I've lost the plot when it comes to that gorgeous boy.
Can't wait!!! Icing on the cake... chilling out with my horse!
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
getting caught up...
Do you ever find that you are getting more and more caught up in what the world throws at you, and tells you is important?
I hate that!
Went and had coffee tonight with Erin who is taking off for 6 months to go and work on one of the "walks" down south. Will miss not having her around all that time. She's been asked to be bridesmaid for Bethany in the States in July which is super exciting. I've warned that I'm thinking about gate crashing the event! Watch out people.... here I come......
Was a real mixed botch of people... but nice to just sit and chat with many of them and hear what's been going on for them. Students still finishing exams, studying hard. Poor people. Funny to know that I've left that world behind me....
At the same time... I MUST SEND OFF ENROLEMENT FORMS!
I'm sorry... brain is darting again tonight. I've been getting very distracted today. It was somewhat productive work wise. Actually lay down on my bed around 6 and fell totally asleep. It wasn't until the phone rang that I woke up, around 6:30. Bliss.
Enough random banter from me.
I'll try and get the brain thing sorted tomorrow, and actually write what's running through it. All far too complicated for me to comprehend - obviously.
"Everything should be made as simple as possible, but not simpler." Albert, the man!
I really like that one! :)
I hate that!
Went and had coffee tonight with Erin who is taking off for 6 months to go and work on one of the "walks" down south. Will miss not having her around all that time. She's been asked to be bridesmaid for Bethany in the States in July which is super exciting. I've warned that I'm thinking about gate crashing the event! Watch out people.... here I come......
Was a real mixed botch of people... but nice to just sit and chat with many of them and hear what's been going on for them. Students still finishing exams, studying hard. Poor people. Funny to know that I've left that world behind me....
At the same time... I MUST SEND OFF ENROLEMENT FORMS!
I'm sorry... brain is darting again tonight. I've been getting very distracted today. It was somewhat productive work wise. Actually lay down on my bed around 6 and fell totally asleep. It wasn't until the phone rang that I woke up, around 6:30. Bliss.
Enough random banter from me.
I'll try and get the brain thing sorted tomorrow, and actually write what's running through it. All far too complicated for me to comprehend - obviously.
"Everything should be made as simple as possible, but not simpler." Albert, the man!
I really like that one! :)
Monday, October 24, 2005
grumpy kinda sunshiney day...
I know it sounds like a contradiction in terms, and shouldn't really be allowed to happen. I fully agree.....
And yet, here I am.
It's been a super busy, whirlwind kind of weekend catching up with people, and life in general. The consequences of having 2 full weeks away. I get so tired. My last night away was one of tossing and turning fiasco... shouldn't complain, because it was also the night of the awesome sunset. Maybe I was still just in awe of it all?!
Got home to an empty house, which was probably just as well. Benny ended up staying the night, which was funny, as always. Means that we do tend to stay up and yak later than we should. We eventually got up the next morning..... aparently I didn't snore, but laughed away the night instead. Must be totally insane!
Jackie ended up coming up to the cup with us... and woweeee... haven't laughed so much in ages. Poor ben suddenly figured out why he was allowed to come and stay at out house.... yes.... because he's such a boy, and no threat at all..... no seriously. It's because he's one of the people who is silly enough to keep me sane.
He's taken off for 5 weeks of solid work touring around - so I guess I'll see him after that, and will no doubt be in dire need of more silliness.
I've always been a firm believer of needing crazy in my life to keep me sane. :)
In some ways - the coolest thing was we all went our seperate ways after a long, drawn out breakfast. Ben was heading off to bike with a friend, Jackie was going to run some errands, and I had shopping to do for the dinner party that night.
I love having that freedom. That you can have such a great time with friends, but also have the freedom to go do your own thing.... knowing you'd catch up later. Does that make sense?
I was on a mission to make pasta with the new pasta maker... wohooooo!! What a labour of love that turned out to be! My goodness!
Took me two hours to get it done, and in the end - because I didn't have a hanger for it all.... it was all glumped together again! CLASSIC!
I was making the sauce at the same time, which was super yummy..... so that was all taken care of, and people were bringing things to make a salad.
In the end I had to start making the pasta again.... a few friends turned up, and in typical CJ fashion, everyone was involved in the making of dinner. It was a beautiful thing - and I just giggled away. I know that it would freak out so many people to have that kind of chaos, but I was always reknown for having that kind of thing going on when I invited around people for dinner. It was all so beautiful, real, and ME! I always figured it was a great way for people to get involved, get to know people they didn't know, and just be real with eachother. (You've all been warned if you ever make it this way for dinner!!!)
Ended up just being a hillarious night. There were 13 of us altogether....and what a mixed bunch. All such dear friends, and many that I haven't seen much of in ages. Lives all going in different directions, which I sometimes struggle with. I want to grasp onto the friendships, and the way they were... but times and seasons change. I guess I get to cherish what was, and look forward to the new friendships, and the way they are growing and becoming more to me now. It's exciting.
We played articulate in groups... which was chaos. So many funny, crazy moments! Decided we should have a google party sometime... I'm thinking everyone should have to google a recipe, and we have to bring the item for a pot luck. :) We'll see.... a few of us are all about random bits of information as well though.
Ben and I ended up staying up later... yaking again. I was so glad he was there for dinner, and got to meet these friends of mine. I knew that he would hit it off with T.... and he'd kind of realise, actually... for a bunch of christians - we are mad! :) and not so bad to hang out with.
Aparently I spent the night giggling away again, which is bizarre, because I woke up crying again. Yeah explain that one... waking up with this super heavy and sorrofull feeling. There is no other way to describe it.
Of course, trying to explain what I'm feeling and why to ben that morning was difficult, when I don't get it myself! He just listened to my babble on.. trying to work it out in my own head. It's such a horrible feeling....
We managed to get up early enough to make scrambled eggs before I had to dash off to church. Moving normally helps to find a sense of normalty, and one of being. It's too easy to let the emotions totally consume me.... and then I'm out of it for the rest of the day.
As it turned out we had a pastor over from Australia who was WOW. All about walking out your destiny, and not letting any "lameness" come into our lives, and stop us from staying on track. It was great... moving... thought provoking... and what I needed!
I left in abit of a hurry.. as I'd told Ben I would be home around 11:30...but in the rush, as I was about to drive off I spoted a kid from church sprinting down the street. Figured I better go see if he needed a ride. Rob, who is 17, is such a great kid! We've had lots of great conversations, and he's so passionate, and alive. Anyway... he was running late for work, so I was able to give him a ride home. The relief he had was huge. You know.... I have to remind myself how the simple things to us, can in fact, be so huge for the other person. It didn't take anything for me to drive to his house, but it made a huge difference to the rest of his day.
The same thing kind of happened while I was driving home from the West Coast. I normally pick up hitch hikers when I'm driving around. i actually feel guilty about having an empty car (well, except for all my samples) So I pick them up when I don't have too many stops to make. Anyway... was driving through Arthurs Pass.. music blaring away... me singing away to Bethany Dillon... thinking about the week, and just kind of zooming in my own world. I drove past some hitch hikers, and just thought... nah... I'm enjoying my space, enjoying listening to my own music, and plus - I'd have to clean up my mess!
I got down the road where I wanted to take a couple of pics.... and it looked like it was going to rain, and I realised how damn selfish I was being. Totally and utterly. I quickly tried to clean up my mess so there would be room for anyone to sit in the back seat and drove back...
I found them and asked if I could give them a ride somewhere....
They were again... beyond relieved!
Two girls had managed to get a ride, and were going to pick up one of the cars and then drive back to get these two. BUT... it would be so much easier for me to take them both to get the other car. They had just finished a 3 days tramp and were exhausted, and cold. We loaded up everything into the car, and I probably drove a whole 10 - 20 ks down the road. What a HUGE deal, NOT! What a huge part of my day it consumed, and what a huge sacrifice I had to make.
BOY... did I need a kick up the bum for my attitude!
I almost missed out on an opportunity to show how friendly kiwi's can be(or Canadians in disguise for that matter) and give them two from Israel a break. It was a chance for me to give someone some time, and a blessing.... and what a joy it is to be able to bless someone!
I guess I'm learning the leason this weekend.
I can't live a selfish life, and it's so easy to just slip into the ME mode, not looking at the real picture.
On that note.... after such a long prattle.....
I'm off to go pick up some more pots to plant some more flowers. I'm determined to spruce up the back yard. Even got some vegie plants the other day. need to plant those as well. You should see the basilets. :) Growing with gumption! Planted some other seeds today.... cosmos, wildflower mix... oh and I need to plant the sunflower seeds too.
YAY.... feeling better now. :)
Better get out there and enjoy the sunbeams while they are there.
"Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does!" William James.
And yet, here I am.
It's been a super busy, whirlwind kind of weekend catching up with people, and life in general. The consequences of having 2 full weeks away. I get so tired. My last night away was one of tossing and turning fiasco... shouldn't complain, because it was also the night of the awesome sunset. Maybe I was still just in awe of it all?!
Got home to an empty house, which was probably just as well. Benny ended up staying the night, which was funny, as always. Means that we do tend to stay up and yak later than we should. We eventually got up the next morning..... aparently I didn't snore, but laughed away the night instead. Must be totally insane!
Jackie ended up coming up to the cup with us... and woweeee... haven't laughed so much in ages. Poor ben suddenly figured out why he was allowed to come and stay at out house.... yes.... because he's such a boy, and no threat at all..... no seriously. It's because he's one of the people who is silly enough to keep me sane.
He's taken off for 5 weeks of solid work touring around - so I guess I'll see him after that, and will no doubt be in dire need of more silliness.
I've always been a firm believer of needing crazy in my life to keep me sane. :)
In some ways - the coolest thing was we all went our seperate ways after a long, drawn out breakfast. Ben was heading off to bike with a friend, Jackie was going to run some errands, and I had shopping to do for the dinner party that night.
I love having that freedom. That you can have such a great time with friends, but also have the freedom to go do your own thing.... knowing you'd catch up later. Does that make sense?
I was on a mission to make pasta with the new pasta maker... wohooooo!! What a labour of love that turned out to be! My goodness!
Took me two hours to get it done, and in the end - because I didn't have a hanger for it all.... it was all glumped together again! CLASSIC!
I was making the sauce at the same time, which was super yummy..... so that was all taken care of, and people were bringing things to make a salad.
In the end I had to start making the pasta again.... a few friends turned up, and in typical CJ fashion, everyone was involved in the making of dinner. It was a beautiful thing - and I just giggled away. I know that it would freak out so many people to have that kind of chaos, but I was always reknown for having that kind of thing going on when I invited around people for dinner. It was all so beautiful, real, and ME! I always figured it was a great way for people to get involved, get to know people they didn't know, and just be real with eachother. (You've all been warned if you ever make it this way for dinner!!!)
Ended up just being a hillarious night. There were 13 of us altogether....and what a mixed bunch. All such dear friends, and many that I haven't seen much of in ages. Lives all going in different directions, which I sometimes struggle with. I want to grasp onto the friendships, and the way they were... but times and seasons change. I guess I get to cherish what was, and look forward to the new friendships, and the way they are growing and becoming more to me now. It's exciting.
We played articulate in groups... which was chaos. So many funny, crazy moments! Decided we should have a google party sometime... I'm thinking everyone should have to google a recipe, and we have to bring the item for a pot luck. :) We'll see.... a few of us are all about random bits of information as well though.
Ben and I ended up staying up later... yaking again. I was so glad he was there for dinner, and got to meet these friends of mine. I knew that he would hit it off with T.... and he'd kind of realise, actually... for a bunch of christians - we are mad! :) and not so bad to hang out with.
Aparently I spent the night giggling away again, which is bizarre, because I woke up crying again. Yeah explain that one... waking up with this super heavy and sorrofull feeling. There is no other way to describe it.
Of course, trying to explain what I'm feeling and why to ben that morning was difficult, when I don't get it myself! He just listened to my babble on.. trying to work it out in my own head. It's such a horrible feeling....
We managed to get up early enough to make scrambled eggs before I had to dash off to church. Moving normally helps to find a sense of normalty, and one of being. It's too easy to let the emotions totally consume me.... and then I'm out of it for the rest of the day.
As it turned out we had a pastor over from Australia who was WOW. All about walking out your destiny, and not letting any "lameness" come into our lives, and stop us from staying on track. It was great... moving... thought provoking... and what I needed!
I left in abit of a hurry.. as I'd told Ben I would be home around 11:30...but in the rush, as I was about to drive off I spoted a kid from church sprinting down the street. Figured I better go see if he needed a ride. Rob, who is 17, is such a great kid! We've had lots of great conversations, and he's so passionate, and alive. Anyway... he was running late for work, so I was able to give him a ride home. The relief he had was huge. You know.... I have to remind myself how the simple things to us, can in fact, be so huge for the other person. It didn't take anything for me to drive to his house, but it made a huge difference to the rest of his day.
The same thing kind of happened while I was driving home from the West Coast. I normally pick up hitch hikers when I'm driving around. i actually feel guilty about having an empty car (well, except for all my samples) So I pick them up when I don't have too many stops to make. Anyway... was driving through Arthurs Pass.. music blaring away... me singing away to Bethany Dillon... thinking about the week, and just kind of zooming in my own world. I drove past some hitch hikers, and just thought... nah... I'm enjoying my space, enjoying listening to my own music, and plus - I'd have to clean up my mess!
I got down the road where I wanted to take a couple of pics.... and it looked like it was going to rain, and I realised how damn selfish I was being. Totally and utterly. I quickly tried to clean up my mess so there would be room for anyone to sit in the back seat and drove back...
I found them and asked if I could give them a ride somewhere....
They were again... beyond relieved!
Two girls had managed to get a ride, and were going to pick up one of the cars and then drive back to get these two. BUT... it would be so much easier for me to take them both to get the other car. They had just finished a 3 days tramp and were exhausted, and cold. We loaded up everything into the car, and I probably drove a whole 10 - 20 ks down the road. What a HUGE deal, NOT! What a huge part of my day it consumed, and what a huge sacrifice I had to make.
BOY... did I need a kick up the bum for my attitude!
I almost missed out on an opportunity to show how friendly kiwi's can be(or Canadians in disguise for that matter) and give them two from Israel a break. It was a chance for me to give someone some time, and a blessing.... and what a joy it is to be able to bless someone!
I guess I'm learning the leason this weekend.
I can't live a selfish life, and it's so easy to just slip into the ME mode, not looking at the real picture.
On that note.... after such a long prattle.....
I'm off to go pick up some more pots to plant some more flowers. I'm determined to spruce up the back yard. Even got some vegie plants the other day. need to plant those as well. You should see the basilets. :) Growing with gumption! Planted some other seeds today.... cosmos, wildflower mix... oh and I need to plant the sunflower seeds too.
YAY.... feeling better now. :)
Better get out there and enjoy the sunbeams while they are there.
"Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does!" William James.
Friday, October 21, 2005
home sweet....
OK... so I was curious to see how the pics turned out more than I was to write.
I thought some of them were pretty good. Will upload the rest of them over the weekend, so you can go look if you so desire. Going to try out Flikr I think though... so bare with me as I change everything around AGAIN.
Had some pretty stunning days away with the weather. Absolutely gorgeous. Almost too hot for me though. Got abit of sun, and have since broken out in a rash. Guess I really am not made for the HOT weather we get here, which is still pretty mild. Not sure what the deal is? Luckily it's only on my arms. I still enjoyed the sun beams though!
As far as work went, I actually had a pretty good time away. Some interesting moments, some break throughs with clients, and some just blah moments. You get those though. No word on the Wellington deal. My boss zoomed off to China the other day - so that one will be waiting till next month i guess. I can handle that. Gives me time to get my head around what I'm wanting, and where I want to go.
Got home to a broken window in the kitchen. Aparently a rugby ball was too blame. Unfortunately no kids came to own up to their little mess. I haven't seen the landlord yet, but couldn't find the rugby ball, so I'm guessing he's been round, and perhaps went to the school to see what's going on. Ain's must have had fun while we were away.
Ahhhhhh..... my little seedlings are looking super spunky!!! Baslets, as I call them. (Basil seedlings for amounts of pesto I hope!)
Will have to plant the sunflower seeds this weekend. YAY for a long weekend!
No super huge thoughts at the moment. brain has gone into holiday mode before me I think. Totally zonked, and no food in the house... wondering about just crawling into bed and forgetting about all that. Except Ben may be coming round? He invited me out to dinner.... crafty little man then tells me they are wanting something spicy. I just laughed. He twigged eventually, so it was the joke that he didn't really want me to come along anyway! Subtle hints and all that.
Will try and be a little better tomorrow. Will at least be playing with the pics before I get into the pasta making for tomorrow night. :) Looking forward to social stuff!
Hope everyone has had a super week... relaxing weekend ahead.
"One of the best temporary cures for pride and affection is seasickness; a man who wants to vomit never puts on airs."
I thought some of them were pretty good. Will upload the rest of them over the weekend, so you can go look if you so desire. Going to try out Flikr I think though... so bare with me as I change everything around AGAIN.
Had some pretty stunning days away with the weather. Absolutely gorgeous. Almost too hot for me though. Got abit of sun, and have since broken out in a rash. Guess I really am not made for the HOT weather we get here, which is still pretty mild. Not sure what the deal is? Luckily it's only on my arms. I still enjoyed the sun beams though!
As far as work went, I actually had a pretty good time away. Some interesting moments, some break throughs with clients, and some just blah moments. You get those though. No word on the Wellington deal. My boss zoomed off to China the other day - so that one will be waiting till next month i guess. I can handle that. Gives me time to get my head around what I'm wanting, and where I want to go.
Got home to a broken window in the kitchen. Aparently a rugby ball was too blame. Unfortunately no kids came to own up to their little mess. I haven't seen the landlord yet, but couldn't find the rugby ball, so I'm guessing he's been round, and perhaps went to the school to see what's going on. Ain's must have had fun while we were away.
Ahhhhhh..... my little seedlings are looking super spunky!!! Baslets, as I call them. (Basil seedlings for amounts of pesto I hope!)
Will have to plant the sunflower seeds this weekend. YAY for a long weekend!
No super huge thoughts at the moment. brain has gone into holiday mode before me I think. Totally zonked, and no food in the house... wondering about just crawling into bed and forgetting about all that. Except Ben may be coming round? He invited me out to dinner.... crafty little man then tells me they are wanting something spicy. I just laughed. He twigged eventually, so it was the joke that he didn't really want me to come along anyway! Subtle hints and all that.
Will try and be a little better tomorrow. Will at least be playing with the pics before I get into the pasta making for tomorrow night. :) Looking forward to social stuff!
Hope everyone has had a super week... relaxing weekend ahead.
"One of the best temporary cures for pride and affection is seasickness; a man who wants to vomit never puts on airs."
Monday, October 17, 2005
leaving on a jet plane....
I wish!
My stomach is in flip flop central.... and I need to get into my car and zoom... NOW!
Crazy when my first apt. is at 2 this afternoon. hehehe. Why do I love this job again?
So.... I will find out about the Wellington thing later this week by the sounds of things. Talked to my boss last night to tell him where I was at as far as the job and living down here. Good move or bad, I'm not sure - but I guess I'll find out soon enough.
This is where the whole... be anxious for nothing springs to mind, and I realise how faithless I feel sometimes. I'll end up exactly where I'm supposed to be, and I need to trust in that.
So... hope everyone has a blast this week! I should come back with some more pictures. I managed to get some of them downloaded into the pics link. Going to look into Flikr when I get back. Looks like a much nicer set up!
tata for now.
"Accept that all of us can be hurt, that all of us can - and surely will at times - fail. Other vulnerabilities, like being embarrased or risking love, can be terrifying too. I think we should follow a simple rule. If we can take the worst, take the risk!" Dr Joyce Brothers
My stomach is in flip flop central.... and I need to get into my car and zoom... NOW!
Crazy when my first apt. is at 2 this afternoon. hehehe. Why do I love this job again?
So.... I will find out about the Wellington thing later this week by the sounds of things. Talked to my boss last night to tell him where I was at as far as the job and living down here. Good move or bad, I'm not sure - but I guess I'll find out soon enough.
This is where the whole... be anxious for nothing springs to mind, and I realise how faithless I feel sometimes. I'll end up exactly where I'm supposed to be, and I need to trust in that.
So... hope everyone has a blast this week! I should come back with some more pictures. I managed to get some of them downloaded into the pics link. Going to look into Flikr when I get back. Looks like a much nicer set up!
tata for now.
"Accept that all of us can be hurt, that all of us can - and surely will at times - fail. Other vulnerabilities, like being embarrased or risking love, can be terrifying too. I think we should follow a simple rule. If we can take the worst, take the risk!" Dr Joyce Brothers
Saturday, October 15, 2005
home again - jigidy jig
About to go shower and then run up the hill for my morning away. Action packed day with people... and while Ains did say she wanted to come up with me... there has been no sign of her yet this morning, and I'm ready to bolt.
Off to a BBQ lunch at a friends parents place. Should be interesting. haha. And then University end of year fancy dinner. Want to go along and catch up with people before they all take off for the summer. Will be nice to just head along and hear what's been going on with the campus group over the year too! I'm bummed that I haven't been able to be more involved.
Just uploaded some pics of the latest trip around. Will put the rest of them up on the link later - though probably won't happen till tomorrow.
Head away again on Monday, so I'm sure I'll catch some more then.
Meanwhile... of all the pics - the most important was the one for Tabby! hehe. I laughed outloud when I saw it. Shame it was closed, otherwise I would have dashed in to look for a hobbit for you. I thought it was cute anyway.
While I was staying in Dunedin I actually got to talk to Shane.... amazingly long and heartfelt conversation. I didn't sleep afterwards, with my brain thinking through all that was said. It was good though. Now... it would seem I'm going to be held accountable to him for some of the things that were talked about. You know that whole so good, and yet, so bad kind of situation! hehe. Oh well. He's still thinking about heading down here Labour weekend - but lets face it, how long have I been waiting for him to get down here?! Silly boy!
Right.... I'll get back to this later.
Cloudy and murky day here..... hope the sun is on out on the other side!
Blessings!
Off to a BBQ lunch at a friends parents place. Should be interesting. haha. And then University end of year fancy dinner. Want to go along and catch up with people before they all take off for the summer. Will be nice to just head along and hear what's been going on with the campus group over the year too! I'm bummed that I haven't been able to be more involved.
Just uploaded some pics of the latest trip around. Will put the rest of them up on the link later - though probably won't happen till tomorrow.
Head away again on Monday, so I'm sure I'll catch some more then.
Meanwhile... of all the pics - the most important was the one for Tabby! hehe. I laughed outloud when I saw it. Shame it was closed, otherwise I would have dashed in to look for a hobbit for you. I thought it was cute anyway.
While I was staying in Dunedin I actually got to talk to Shane.... amazingly long and heartfelt conversation. I didn't sleep afterwards, with my brain thinking through all that was said. It was good though. Now... it would seem I'm going to be held accountable to him for some of the things that were talked about. You know that whole so good, and yet, so bad kind of situation! hehe. Oh well. He's still thinking about heading down here Labour weekend - but lets face it, how long have I been waiting for him to get down here?! Silly boy!
Right.... I'll get back to this later.
Cloudy and murky day here..... hope the sun is on out on the other side!
Blessings!
Sunday, October 09, 2005
so long, farewell....
So, I haven't packed..... and I leave tomorrow!
Actually, got the coolest surprise tonight. My friend benny called to say he was in Christchurch, could he crash. Just home from Mexican - yummy! Totally stuffed, and zonked, so will be quick.
Head into the deep South tomorrow.... Hit Ahsburton, Timaru, Oamaru and then Dunedin. It's only 5 hours to get to Dunedin - driving straight thru, but with all my stops - will get there around 6pm. Fun stuff!
So... shall look forward to catching up on everything when I get back!
Tabby - any news on Windy Wellington? Let me know so I can book tickets up there to catch up with you. (though maybe it would be better to get you down here to tiki tour around the LOTR country?! :) )
Jay - I'd started writing a long email to you, and then ben jumped on the computer, and it all vanished. I promise to fill you in when I get back.
Right... sleeeeeeep....
Be super Blessed guy! (and no big mischief while I'm gone)
"Life is under no obligation to give us what we expect!"
Margaret Mitchell
Actually, got the coolest surprise tonight. My friend benny called to say he was in Christchurch, could he crash. Just home from Mexican - yummy! Totally stuffed, and zonked, so will be quick.
Head into the deep South tomorrow.... Hit Ahsburton, Timaru, Oamaru and then Dunedin. It's only 5 hours to get to Dunedin - driving straight thru, but with all my stops - will get there around 6pm. Fun stuff!
So... shall look forward to catching up on everything when I get back!
Tabby - any news on Windy Wellington? Let me know so I can book tickets up there to catch up with you. (though maybe it would be better to get you down here to tiki tour around the LOTR country?! :) )
Jay - I'd started writing a long email to you, and then ben jumped on the computer, and it all vanished. I promise to fill you in when I get back.
Right... sleeeeeeep....
Be super Blessed guy! (and no big mischief while I'm gone)
"Life is under no obligation to give us what we expect!"
Margaret Mitchell
PMS...
Need the theme from jaws here I think..... Da dum da dum dadumdadumdadumdadum.....
I know I shouldn't use the excuse of PMS as a justifiable one, but I don't know what else could possibly put me into such a spin. (well, maybe I could... but I think that's all totally beside the issue at hand!) Maybe this is where Gods grace is really put to work?! ;)
I've been putting off, and putting off going to the doctors and being poked and proded for the sake of my sanity, and perhaps those around me - simply because while I do want to have the answers, I don't at the same time. The last round of tests didn't really bring up anything conclussive, and while things are getting worse, maybe it is all in my head?
It's been an especially draining week with the boss, and I guess emotions have been high with the wedding stuff, and the aniversary of both of my grandmothers death and of course PMS!! I find it hard to believe that granny died 10 years ago now. Time has flown. I've been back in NZ almost 6 years now, which is hard to believe. Kentucky feels like it was just the other day in many ways. Of course I'm remembering less, and struggling to keep in touch with friends from those days. I've been trying to find one friend who kind of dissapeared after a somewhat stressful visit that he made out to San Fran to stay before I came back here. I regret not getting to spend more relaxed time with just him.... and more than that, I hate the fact that I can't seem to find him again now. Last heard - he's a traveling doctor in New Mexico. Not terribly helpful. hehe. I know, when I'm supposed to find him, he'll write to me, and I'll get to catch up on the last few years. I'm pretty sure we'd be able to slide back into the friendship we had. Who knows.
So... the PMS has helped to keep me off balance - being upset about not being able to find Sean, taking things very seriously with other people, and just being as tactless as is imagineable. It's like the rational part of my brain gets closed down this time of month, or all the little rational thinkers that help to keep me moving and thinking more clearly have taken off for a long weekend.... and the only thing that I know that works properly are my tear glands. They get tested all too often, and my stomach cramps are as reliable and consistent as the rising sun.
JOY!
And now... it's 1:30 Sunday morning. What am I doing awake???????
Hope everyone else is having a beautiful weekend and that the sun is shining between your toes!
I know I shouldn't use the excuse of PMS as a justifiable one, but I don't know what else could possibly put me into such a spin. (well, maybe I could... but I think that's all totally beside the issue at hand!) Maybe this is where Gods grace is really put to work?! ;)
I've been putting off, and putting off going to the doctors and being poked and proded for the sake of my sanity, and perhaps those around me - simply because while I do want to have the answers, I don't at the same time. The last round of tests didn't really bring up anything conclussive, and while things are getting worse, maybe it is all in my head?
It's been an especially draining week with the boss, and I guess emotions have been high with the wedding stuff, and the aniversary of both of my grandmothers death and of course PMS!! I find it hard to believe that granny died 10 years ago now. Time has flown. I've been back in NZ almost 6 years now, which is hard to believe. Kentucky feels like it was just the other day in many ways. Of course I'm remembering less, and struggling to keep in touch with friends from those days. I've been trying to find one friend who kind of dissapeared after a somewhat stressful visit that he made out to San Fran to stay before I came back here. I regret not getting to spend more relaxed time with just him.... and more than that, I hate the fact that I can't seem to find him again now. Last heard - he's a traveling doctor in New Mexico. Not terribly helpful. hehe. I know, when I'm supposed to find him, he'll write to me, and I'll get to catch up on the last few years. I'm pretty sure we'd be able to slide back into the friendship we had. Who knows.
So... the PMS has helped to keep me off balance - being upset about not being able to find Sean, taking things very seriously with other people, and just being as tactless as is imagineable. It's like the rational part of my brain gets closed down this time of month, or all the little rational thinkers that help to keep me moving and thinking more clearly have taken off for a long weekend.... and the only thing that I know that works properly are my tear glands. They get tested all too often, and my stomach cramps are as reliable and consistent as the rising sun.
JOY!
And now... it's 1:30 Sunday morning. What am I doing awake???????
Hope everyone else is having a beautiful weekend and that the sun is shining between your toes!
Saturday, October 08, 2005
OK... so here's the deal. This was the ring that was given to me many years ago.... I've been holding onto it, I guess in fear that I would never get another one. Silly, I know... but it is still a fear in the back of my head. Now, how can I expect to get another one, when I'm holding on this one?! hehe. So.. going to put this one up for auction on a site here in NZ. The trick - I would love some help in coming up with the perfect caption to go with it! :) Any ideas... let me know!
Thursday, October 06, 2005
quietly....
about to slip off to bed, to sleep hard. My back is all achey (is that a real word?) and my hands are cold. hehe. So much for spring!
So... one more day with my new boss. Tomorrow should be a little easier than the last two days, though in all honesty - how hard can it be when I get to drive over to Akaroa for the day. Gorgeous sunshine, sea breeze, salt in the air, and just beautiful old buildings. OH... and lunch outside in the sunshine with the seagauls screaming. It was like summer. Picture perfect, and guess who left the camera at home! NEXT TIME!
Now... to catch people up. I've been in my new job since May. Completely new world for me, as far as the travel, and having to actually step out of my little world, and into the world of selling outside of my office. Where people don't always want to know you. I've always lived by the philosophy that sales in primarily about relationships, and I view my role as being that of a problem solver. I'm going out there to build a rapport with my clients, to understand what they are buying, what their customers are buying, and where I can help them out. They need something - I want to be able to help them find it. :) That's pretty much it.
So... I jumped into this with gusto, and perhaps a little bit of tripadation (I'm sure Mike would just say that I was SCARED!) I arrived at the head office in Wellington to meet everyone at the office, and get the BIG inroduction. It was a moment to say the least.
I arrived to find that the guy who had hired me, my "boss" had just resigned.
Hmmmmm... not really what I wanted to hear, at all! I had come on board with the understanding that I would be given the support that i would need in this new role - not only for me, but for the company as well. They were heading in a new direction, but the guy leading us had just jumped ship.
Small freak out time!
Anyway.... they send me back to Christchurch where I'm told to pick up my car, and start making calls! Steep learning curves seem to be my friends. :)
New boss Michael steps in. We're told it's not a permanent situation, but he'll be around until Christmas. He comes down to visit me, and I fly up to Wellington a couple of times.... things are going somewhere, though not quickly, and I'm feeling rather alone down here, but at least I know he's in Wellington and will try to solve my problems.
Next minute - I've re-arranged my life for him to come down and do a trip up north , and I get a call on the Monday before he comes down to say I'm leaving. My last day is the .... and this guy in Auckland is replacing me.
FREAK OUT TWO!
Now... I've travelled alot on my own, I'm rather independent, and perfectly capable of dealing with crazy situations, and stress.
BUT... I'd left a job that I loved but in all honesty did not offer alot of stability. I was rather hoping that while this job would be challenging, that it would not also include having 3 different bosses in less than 6 months!
This brings me to this week. I've changed my schedule around again so I could spend this week in Christchurch and meet the new boss who lives in Auckland. Abit more than the skip away that Wellington was, but at least this means that the other girl will have more support, which is brilliant!
Now... new boss is lovely. I've spent two really good days with him. I've vented, and explained the situation I'm in, the problems that I've had, and the way that I've been dealing with things, and I think???? that he understands and can see where I'm coming from. AND>.... he's even on the same page. :)
I'm sure this is all going to be a huge learning curve for him, but he's been in this business for a long time, and he seems to have a pretty good grasp on how we can move forward and actually get to the results we are all hoping and aiming for.
It's kind of exciting really.
No word on the Wellington thing yet.... (I'll explain all that tomorrow)
For now.... it's past my bed time.... cause I must be getting older now.
I hope I didn't just sound like a serious whine then. There are so many aspects of this job that I do love, and I know I'm super blessed to have the opportunity to be growing in this way.... to be learning, and be given as much space as I've got - which is what I seem to do well with. I just know that we'd be capable of so much more with a few things sorted out now. :)
"It's the action, not the fruit of the action that's important. You have to do the right thing. It may not be in your power, may not be in your time that there will be any fruit. BUT, that doesn't mean you stop doing the right thing. You may never know what results come from your action, but if you do nothing, there will be No result."
Gandhi
So... one more day with my new boss. Tomorrow should be a little easier than the last two days, though in all honesty - how hard can it be when I get to drive over to Akaroa for the day. Gorgeous sunshine, sea breeze, salt in the air, and just beautiful old buildings. OH... and lunch outside in the sunshine with the seagauls screaming. It was like summer. Picture perfect, and guess who left the camera at home! NEXT TIME!
Now... to catch people up. I've been in my new job since May. Completely new world for me, as far as the travel, and having to actually step out of my little world, and into the world of selling outside of my office. Where people don't always want to know you. I've always lived by the philosophy that sales in primarily about relationships, and I view my role as being that of a problem solver. I'm going out there to build a rapport with my clients, to understand what they are buying, what their customers are buying, and where I can help them out. They need something - I want to be able to help them find it. :) That's pretty much it.
So... I jumped into this with gusto, and perhaps a little bit of tripadation (I'm sure Mike would just say that I was SCARED!) I arrived at the head office in Wellington to meet everyone at the office, and get the BIG inroduction. It was a moment to say the least.
I arrived to find that the guy who had hired me, my "boss" had just resigned.
Hmmmmm... not really what I wanted to hear, at all! I had come on board with the understanding that I would be given the support that i would need in this new role - not only for me, but for the company as well. They were heading in a new direction, but the guy leading us had just jumped ship.
Small freak out time!
Anyway.... they send me back to Christchurch where I'm told to pick up my car, and start making calls! Steep learning curves seem to be my friends. :)
New boss Michael steps in. We're told it's not a permanent situation, but he'll be around until Christmas. He comes down to visit me, and I fly up to Wellington a couple of times.... things are going somewhere, though not quickly, and I'm feeling rather alone down here, but at least I know he's in Wellington and will try to solve my problems.
Next minute - I've re-arranged my life for him to come down and do a trip up north , and I get a call on the Monday before he comes down to say I'm leaving. My last day is the .... and this guy in Auckland is replacing me.
FREAK OUT TWO!
Now... I've travelled alot on my own, I'm rather independent, and perfectly capable of dealing with crazy situations, and stress.
BUT... I'd left a job that I loved but in all honesty did not offer alot of stability. I was rather hoping that while this job would be challenging, that it would not also include having 3 different bosses in less than 6 months!
This brings me to this week. I've changed my schedule around again so I could spend this week in Christchurch and meet the new boss who lives in Auckland. Abit more than the skip away that Wellington was, but at least this means that the other girl will have more support, which is brilliant!
Now... new boss is lovely. I've spent two really good days with him. I've vented, and explained the situation I'm in, the problems that I've had, and the way that I've been dealing with things, and I think???? that he understands and can see where I'm coming from. AND>.... he's even on the same page. :)
I'm sure this is all going to be a huge learning curve for him, but he's been in this business for a long time, and he seems to have a pretty good grasp on how we can move forward and actually get to the results we are all hoping and aiming for.
It's kind of exciting really.
No word on the Wellington thing yet.... (I'll explain all that tomorrow)
For now.... it's past my bed time.... cause I must be getting older now.
I hope I didn't just sound like a serious whine then. There are so many aspects of this job that I do love, and I know I'm super blessed to have the opportunity to be growing in this way.... to be learning, and be given as much space as I've got - which is what I seem to do well with. I just know that we'd be capable of so much more with a few things sorted out now. :)
"It's the action, not the fruit of the action that's important. You have to do the right thing. It may not be in your power, may not be in your time that there will be any fruit. BUT, that doesn't mean you stop doing the right thing. You may never know what results come from your action, but if you do nothing, there will be No result."
Gandhi
faster than a speeding......
So, I've survived the first day, and about to stumble into the second with my new boss.
I was even brave enough to invite him round for dinner last night, since I had T&E and my cousin - who kinda got distracted somewhere along the way, as did his wife. Bizarre, but another story.
Anyway... new boss is ALL GOOD! :) At least, he understands where I'm coming from, and how difficult I'm finding it all, and WHY! yay. We'll see what happens from here. No mention of Wellington yet. I guess maybe today or tomorrow? I'm going to drag him over to Akaroa today - the sun is out, after amazing winds all of yesterday. So, gotta make the most of it!
Who knows what we'll do tomorrow?
For now... gotta dash.
"Where these is great love, there are always miracles."
I was even brave enough to invite him round for dinner last night, since I had T&E and my cousin - who kinda got distracted somewhere along the way, as did his wife. Bizarre, but another story.
Anyway... new boss is ALL GOOD! :) At least, he understands where I'm coming from, and how difficult I'm finding it all, and WHY! yay. We'll see what happens from here. No mention of Wellington yet. I guess maybe today or tomorrow? I'm going to drag him over to Akaroa today - the sun is out, after amazing winds all of yesterday. So, gotta make the most of it!
Who knows what we'll do tomorrow?
For now... gotta dash.
"Where these is great love, there are always miracles."
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
sunbeams with scattered rainbows
Just home... another load of laundry done, and the work is slowly being done.
I tried super hard to be all productive like last night.... watching some doco on penguins, while flicking through price lists, and putting together client details. It was all going quite well.... when I got a phone call on my cell.
"hello"
"hello... is this christina?"
"yes... this is christina."
"christy, this is emily."
"emily... what are you doing? where are you? what are you doing?"
"actually... sam and i need a bed tonight.... can we come?"
Sooooooo..... an hour later, my cousin emily and her boyfriend sam rocked on up.
YAY! Hadn't seen them since christmas time - where sam really was initiated into the family scene. :) Of course, there ended any hope of me getting a serious amount of work done. haha.
Got to hear about their travels, and the crazy snow in Alexandra where they've been shearing. Sounded like a great time, really! :)
This morning.... we tried to get up early... at least, I did stumble out of bed before 8 - which isn't the easiest thing for me now with this silly daylight savings. hehehe. Actually, Sam and I are both of the opinion that it really is silly, and messed with us way too much to make it worth while. who needs more daylight hours anyway? GET UP EARLIER if you want more daylight!! ;)
Go play tennis before work.... do your gradening in the dark so that everything gets more creative......
Doesn't that all sound like a far better plan.....
We went and had breakfast on the hill. It was a beautiful morning... though the alps still seemed to be covered in cloud.... Emily has a dinky little telescope that she uses when she's out doing the lambing... and just happened to have with her while we were up there. cute stuff.
they're thinking of buying some land, which would be awesome.... little 10acre section, with the possible option of being able to lease the farm next door.... so I guess this is the beginning of the next generation of farmers in the family. I think Emily is probably the only serious one in that family - though I don't know what James will do. And I'm the only one in our family. Though our farm is nothing in comparison to that one. sheeps and lambs galour... along with the awesome caves. and it looks like the cafe thing is going to happen, which is very cool!
Mayeb we need to do the backpacker thing out there instead?
Although I think that was a thought at some stage, and it caused major chaos with the council when they went for planning consent.
Still waiting on the cafe consent to all be approved now... 14 weeks to go. haha
Righty ho... work waits.... the day doesn't.
"because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings." Psalm 63:7
I tried super hard to be all productive like last night.... watching some doco on penguins, while flicking through price lists, and putting together client details. It was all going quite well.... when I got a phone call on my cell.
"hello"
"hello... is this christina?"
"yes... this is christina."
"christy, this is emily."
"emily... what are you doing? where are you? what are you doing?"
"actually... sam and i need a bed tonight.... can we come?"
Sooooooo..... an hour later, my cousin emily and her boyfriend sam rocked on up.
YAY! Hadn't seen them since christmas time - where sam really was initiated into the family scene. :) Of course, there ended any hope of me getting a serious amount of work done. haha.
Got to hear about their travels, and the crazy snow in Alexandra where they've been shearing. Sounded like a great time, really! :)
This morning.... we tried to get up early... at least, I did stumble out of bed before 8 - which isn't the easiest thing for me now with this silly daylight savings. hehehe. Actually, Sam and I are both of the opinion that it really is silly, and messed with us way too much to make it worth while. who needs more daylight hours anyway? GET UP EARLIER if you want more daylight!! ;)
Go play tennis before work.... do your gradening in the dark so that everything gets more creative......
Doesn't that all sound like a far better plan.....
We went and had breakfast on the hill. It was a beautiful morning... though the alps still seemed to be covered in cloud.... Emily has a dinky little telescope that she uses when she's out doing the lambing... and just happened to have with her while we were up there. cute stuff.
they're thinking of buying some land, which would be awesome.... little 10acre section, with the possible option of being able to lease the farm next door.... so I guess this is the beginning of the next generation of farmers in the family. I think Emily is probably the only serious one in that family - though I don't know what James will do. And I'm the only one in our family. Though our farm is nothing in comparison to that one. sheeps and lambs galour... along with the awesome caves. and it looks like the cafe thing is going to happen, which is very cool!
Mayeb we need to do the backpacker thing out there instead?
Although I think that was a thought at some stage, and it caused major chaos with the council when they went for planning consent.
Still waiting on the cafe consent to all be approved now... 14 weeks to go. haha
Righty ho... work waits.... the day doesn't.
"because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings." Psalm 63:7
Monday, October 03, 2005
Monday monday.....
ahhhhh ahh ahhhhh... so good to me......(imagine, if you will the mommas and the poppas singing away)
Monday's are always a slow kinda day for me.... Ains has just gone to work, and Jackie has taken off for her first flight as a flight attendant... well, that happens tomorrow, but she flies up to Wellington this afternoon in preperation.
She was super excited, but nervous and scared at the same time. Hopefully she'll just be able to relax and enjoy the city this afternoon. Her first flight is to Brisbane early tomorrow, then back to Auckland and I think to Fiji the next day. Madness, really! :)
So... poor Ains is going to be at home by herself alot for the rest of the year. She's been thinking about packing up and taking off to Australia herself to nurse.. and we all know that I'm not capable of making a decision about anything like that. hehe.
Guess that means we'll have to do the flat trip before the end of the year... weekend in Sydney? We'll see. I would be happy anywhere right now. Still wishing I was kayaking the Abel Tasman for Labour Weekend.... have just organised to have a dinner party on the Saturday now though. We'll see.
It was a pretty blah weekend. Daylight Savings started on Saturday, and that always throws me way out. I'm much more of a winter girl. hehe. Short days, darkness, waking up an hour later. hehe. I couldn't get to sleep last night for anything. Was trying to come up with someone who would be in the right timezone for me to ring. Alas - couldn't think of anyone who would appreciate it at that hour.... or that would be around. So... over thought the universe before exhausting myself into sleep. Woke up suddenly this morning at 9. Not good at all. Just glad I didn't have any meetings set up today - and while it's been a semi-productive day, I still have to much to do before Wednesday. Freaking quietly about that one.... what to do... where to go? Ahhhh.. not much I can do besides the normal. and there is no point in stressing over it all.
Wow... just realised how my brain is drating every-which-way right now... no wonder I'm not getting a whole lot done quickly today. hehehe.
Sleep? make sense to me.
But better have a look at some paper work first.... I can always do it from bed. :)
"Cheerfulness and contentment are great beautifiers and are famous preservers of good looks."
Charles Dickens
Monday's are always a slow kinda day for me.... Ains has just gone to work, and Jackie has taken off for her first flight as a flight attendant... well, that happens tomorrow, but she flies up to Wellington this afternoon in preperation.
She was super excited, but nervous and scared at the same time. Hopefully she'll just be able to relax and enjoy the city this afternoon. Her first flight is to Brisbane early tomorrow, then back to Auckland and I think to Fiji the next day. Madness, really! :)
So... poor Ains is going to be at home by herself alot for the rest of the year. She's been thinking about packing up and taking off to Australia herself to nurse.. and we all know that I'm not capable of making a decision about anything like that. hehe.
Guess that means we'll have to do the flat trip before the end of the year... weekend in Sydney? We'll see. I would be happy anywhere right now. Still wishing I was kayaking the Abel Tasman for Labour Weekend.... have just organised to have a dinner party on the Saturday now though. We'll see.
It was a pretty blah weekend. Daylight Savings started on Saturday, and that always throws me way out. I'm much more of a winter girl. hehe. Short days, darkness, waking up an hour later. hehe. I couldn't get to sleep last night for anything. Was trying to come up with someone who would be in the right timezone for me to ring. Alas - couldn't think of anyone who would appreciate it at that hour.... or that would be around. So... over thought the universe before exhausting myself into sleep. Woke up suddenly this morning at 9. Not good at all. Just glad I didn't have any meetings set up today - and while it's been a semi-productive day, I still have to much to do before Wednesday. Freaking quietly about that one.... what to do... where to go? Ahhhh.. not much I can do besides the normal. and there is no point in stressing over it all.
Wow... just realised how my brain is drating every-which-way right now... no wonder I'm not getting a whole lot done quickly today. hehehe.
Sleep? make sense to me.
But better have a look at some paper work first.... I can always do it from bed. :)
"Cheerfulness and contentment are great beautifiers and are famous preservers of good looks."
Charles Dickens
Friday, September 30, 2005
cheesy
OK... so that is one cheesy picture, but I had to laugh when I saw it. No idea what I was thinking - trying to take a pic of myself anyway. Madness!
Maybe one day I'll think about trying to capture the mullet? Jacx thought I was sooo over the top yesterday with my explosion about the haircut. OK, sure I was to any normal human being - but to me... NEVER! hehehe
I feel like I've got every right to be over the top. hahaha. If for no other reason than to keep the people around me on their toes.
Jacx will be here soon... and then she can actually witness the hair in it's natural state of being. That's sticking up EVERY-WHICH-WAY! I have serious BOOF! which really just makes me laugh more than anything now. It will grow!
And I won't be feeling brave enough to go see a hairdresser again in a long time. I forgot how much I hate hairdressers.
If I had to think of anything I was actually scared of.... that would be it! A bad haircut will scare me for a LONG time!
So... enough about that one.... I am over it... really I am.... I won't need the therapy... and I will take the hats off eventually.
sunbeams and daisies.
Maybe one day I'll think about trying to capture the mullet? Jacx thought I was sooo over the top yesterday with my explosion about the haircut. OK, sure I was to any normal human being - but to me... NEVER! hehehe
I feel like I've got every right to be over the top. hahaha. If for no other reason than to keep the people around me on their toes.
Jacx will be here soon... and then she can actually witness the hair in it's natural state of being. That's sticking up EVERY-WHICH-WAY! I have serious BOOF! which really just makes me laugh more than anything now. It will grow!
And I won't be feeling brave enough to go see a hairdresser again in a long time. I forgot how much I hate hairdressers.
If I had to think of anything I was actually scared of.... that would be it! A bad haircut will scare me for a LONG time!
So... enough about that one.... I am over it... really I am.... I won't need the therapy... and I will take the hats off eventually.
sunbeams and daisies.
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
nuts
So... haircut today, and while I love my hairdresser, I have no idea what the hell was going on in her head today?!
I went in asking for a shorter in length, with two layers.... top just bellow ear, and then longer to flick out.... how hard could that be? to me it hardly translates into LAYERS ALL OVER!!!!
Thankgoodness it is actually shorter, or I would be totally flipping out!!!
What is it they say about the 3 days between a good and bad haircut?! Praying.
I know it sounds so stupid... and I feel like I'm being totally irrational about a haircut. Trust me... fully aware, and this just makes me realise how nuts I am beginning to go.
I need a holiday. That must be it. Only I don't know where to go, or what to do. And then there is the whole - I'm alone enough of the time - I hardly want to go on a holiday by myself too. hehehe
We'll see.... I need to find something for me though, or I'm going to loose the plot. Of course... have a concert to get organised in the next couple of months. In fact - we've got a month! EICK!
So... guess I'll have more than enough to keep me busy.
On that note... better go do some emailing to get things rolling.
what a freak I'm becoming... thanks for putting up with it.
I went in asking for a shorter in length, with two layers.... top just bellow ear, and then longer to flick out.... how hard could that be? to me it hardly translates into LAYERS ALL OVER!!!!
Thankgoodness it is actually shorter, or I would be totally flipping out!!!
What is it they say about the 3 days between a good and bad haircut?! Praying.
I know it sounds so stupid... and I feel like I'm being totally irrational about a haircut. Trust me... fully aware, and this just makes me realise how nuts I am beginning to go.
I need a holiday. That must be it. Only I don't know where to go, or what to do. And then there is the whole - I'm alone enough of the time - I hardly want to go on a holiday by myself too. hehehe
We'll see.... I need to find something for me though, or I'm going to loose the plot. Of course... have a concert to get organised in the next couple of months. In fact - we've got a month! EICK!
So... guess I'll have more than enough to keep me busy.
On that note... better go do some emailing to get things rolling.
what a freak I'm becoming... thanks for putting up with it.
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Saturday, September 24, 2005
glorious...
Just home from the concert that I was helping out with tonight.
Parachute Band, who are a very cool NZ band that have been around for YEARS, and seem to get around the world at amazing speed are just WOW for worship.
It was great to sit there, and just soak up the passion, the emotion, and the heartfelt words that they sang. Of course.... we sang away with them.... and I just felt a sense of relief. After this week away, I guess there has been a stiring in my heart. Things have been different, and I don't think I can try to explain it all on here just yet.
For now I'm going to go fill up my hot water bottle, and curl up in the peace that still fills me, and sleep long.
Kia kaha
Parachute Band, who are a very cool NZ band that have been around for YEARS, and seem to get around the world at amazing speed are just WOW for worship.
It was great to sit there, and just soak up the passion, the emotion, and the heartfelt words that they sang. Of course.... we sang away with them.... and I just felt a sense of relief. After this week away, I guess there has been a stiring in my heart. Things have been different, and I don't think I can try to explain it all on here just yet.
For now I'm going to go fill up my hot water bottle, and curl up in the peace that still fills me, and sleep long.
Kia kaha
all over...
It was kind of a strange week away.
So many blessings..... much over thinking....
and right now, I think I just want to go climb up the hill and day dream away for abit on my own.
Just loading photos onto the albums, so that I can forget about them. :) Sneaky, I know. Not too many exciting ones this week. I stayed with friends who have an organic orchard just outside of Nelson and Motueka. It's such a beautiful spot. I got there while they were both out.... so just went and wandered around the orchard at sunset.... so still and peaceful. There was a woodpigeon having a feast, so I managed to grab a few pics of that. We talked alot about Canada. Their daughter has just moved to Toronto. They had originally started in England with my parents, and then moved to Montreal.... So, I've grown up with these guys, though never had them around. Doesn't really make alot of sense - does it. hehe. They are however, fantastic and gorgeous, and I do so enjoy spending time with them.
My mother called while I was cooking dinner.... and came up with the sudden idea that they head to Canada next year for Christmas. Perfect if I'm over there! :) Failing that - guess who will be looking after the farm then. hahaha. My parents are such nutters! They went out and grabbed some cheap fares to Melbourne a while ago.... thinking they would got to the Melbourne Cup. They arrive the day of the race, haven't got tickets to the races yet, and haven't bought a return flight either! hahaha She then asked if J&J would like to come to? With such a well thought out plan, I don't know how they managed to refuse. :) Now I know that I totally inherited my parents crazy travel genes.
I had better get moving here... the fidget thing is growing.... and have loads to get done before tonight.
but first... the hill..... I'll have to try and write an Ode to my beloved hill one of the days. hehe
Hope everyone had a great week!
Toodles for now.
So many blessings..... much over thinking....
and right now, I think I just want to go climb up the hill and day dream away for abit on my own.
Just loading photos onto the albums, so that I can forget about them. :) Sneaky, I know. Not too many exciting ones this week. I stayed with friends who have an organic orchard just outside of Nelson and Motueka. It's such a beautiful spot. I got there while they were both out.... so just went and wandered around the orchard at sunset.... so still and peaceful. There was a woodpigeon having a feast, so I managed to grab a few pics of that. We talked alot about Canada. Their daughter has just moved to Toronto. They had originally started in England with my parents, and then moved to Montreal.... So, I've grown up with these guys, though never had them around. Doesn't really make alot of sense - does it. hehe. They are however, fantastic and gorgeous, and I do so enjoy spending time with them.
My mother called while I was cooking dinner.... and came up with the sudden idea that they head to Canada next year for Christmas. Perfect if I'm over there! :) Failing that - guess who will be looking after the farm then. hahaha. My parents are such nutters! They went out and grabbed some cheap fares to Melbourne a while ago.... thinking they would got to the Melbourne Cup. They arrive the day of the race, haven't got tickets to the races yet, and haven't bought a return flight either! hahaha She then asked if J&J would like to come to? With such a well thought out plan, I don't know how they managed to refuse. :) Now I know that I totally inherited my parents crazy travel genes.
I had better get moving here... the fidget thing is growing.... and have loads to get done before tonight.
but first... the hill..... I'll have to try and write an Ode to my beloved hill one of the days. hehe
Hope everyone had a great week!
Toodles for now.
Sunday, September 18, 2005
and so it goes....
Finished packing, which is something I guess I'm getting better at. Amazing how much I can fit into my little suitcase. Seems funny that when I head up to the farm I need SO much more. hehe.
Was just looking at flights for the wedding. Better get those booked before I take off for this next week away. Looks like I'm going to fly into Rotorua on the Friday afternoon, and then out of Hamilton on the Sunday to try and make life easier for everyone. Not sure what to do about work on the Friday - but I'll figure that one out later.
Caught up with J&K today. Haven't seen them in ages, and it was so good to hear what they've been upto. A few of us went out for lunch after church, and just yarned away. It's funny how you get the different groups of people. All the way through High School I was always able to float between groups. Had no ONE group, just went between them all, and they spanned across the years. It was very cool to be able to just fit in, and have so many different friends, but I guess looking back - was I like that just so no one would actually really know me?
It's kind of the same now. I can fit into any group of people... and I enjoy meeting and getting to know them all, but do I have just one place where I feel like I belong. Nope.
Maybe that's why I prefer having time with just one person? Or maybe that's why I feel like my time here is over? I'd like to think that I've tried... and I know that Jacx and I will always be close, but it was pretty obvious, even before she got married that she was being swept up into another group. And it's one I can always jump into on the surface, but never all the way in. Mostly because it's all the newly married couples... totally different world to mine.
Anyway.... I'm zonked, so think I may actually have an early night before tomorrow. Probably quite a good plan to start the week off wide awake. :)
bonsoir x
Was just looking at flights for the wedding. Better get those booked before I take off for this next week away. Looks like I'm going to fly into Rotorua on the Friday afternoon, and then out of Hamilton on the Sunday to try and make life easier for everyone. Not sure what to do about work on the Friday - but I'll figure that one out later.
Caught up with J&K today. Haven't seen them in ages, and it was so good to hear what they've been upto. A few of us went out for lunch after church, and just yarned away. It's funny how you get the different groups of people. All the way through High School I was always able to float between groups. Had no ONE group, just went between them all, and they spanned across the years. It was very cool to be able to just fit in, and have so many different friends, but I guess looking back - was I like that just so no one would actually really know me?
It's kind of the same now. I can fit into any group of people... and I enjoy meeting and getting to know them all, but do I have just one place where I feel like I belong. Nope.
Maybe that's why I prefer having time with just one person? Or maybe that's why I feel like my time here is over? I'd like to think that I've tried... and I know that Jacx and I will always be close, but it was pretty obvious, even before she got married that she was being swept up into another group. And it's one I can always jump into on the surface, but never all the way in. Mostly because it's all the newly married couples... totally different world to mine.
Anyway.... I'm zonked, so think I may actually have an early night before tomorrow. Probably quite a good plan to start the week off wide awake. :)
bonsoir x
flying...
The week has pretty much zoomed on by. My boss came down to catch up with me on Thursday, which was also my first day to eat. Everything went well... including the food aspect. :)
Now I just need to get abit braver with work, take some more risks, and I guess look forward to meeting my new boss.
I take off again tomorrow. Heading up North, into what looks like a week of rain. Of course I shall remain super optomistic. I haven't talked to Greg about me calling in on my way back, but hopefully he'll be around, and I can go laze in the hot pools while I'm there. Doesn't matter what the weather is like there. It will always remind me of Canada.
I talked to Nig the other night. He just took off to South America yesterday, and won't be back in the UK for over 2 months. He was super excited about it all... doing some volutry work over there for a while, which would be so cool, then backpacking his way around. He'll be back in England in Nov to find another teaching job, and then.... we thought we would catch up over his summer. So, hopefully regardless of where we both we, we'll find somewhere to hang out! He's keen to head back to Canada... and promised that he will come and find me. I wasn't the nicest friend in the world to him. Telling him exactly how it was.... he kept telling me how busy his life was, and how much he'd been doing, and how time just zoomed away from him. I just told him it was all a choice, and a reflection of his priorities. He had been telling me that he would call me since June. And while I left him messages, and sent him txts, I never heard anything from him, except the txt to say, I'll call you next weekend.... and it would never happen. Don't get me wrong, I know what busy is like, and I can totally understand time getting away from you. I just prioritise my life differently, and will always put people ahead of things. 3 months felt like long enough to let him know that he was slack. He couldn't even get around to emailing me his address so I could post his birthday present. hahaha. Silly boy!
Anyway.... told him I still loved him, and missed him lots. Was remembering back to what we flatted together over a summer at the school. It was madness. We both lived such busy lifestyles, and would go a whole week without even seeing eachother, but come the weekends.... it was always fun to catch up. laze around outside in the sun reading. I guess we've always been comfortable with silence. Not needing to talk all the time. Our crazy trips to the Port will always be such wacky memories. Playing 500 into the wee hours of the morning. John breaking the bed when we beat Nig! hahaha.... the canoe escapade which went slightly pear shaped, when we didn't bother to check the tide. Nig and I ended up on the other side of the river dragging the canoe along behind us, as we walked up to the point. It was hillarious! A Canadian Canoe on top of the hillman was quite a picture too. Shame I have no photos of any of the adventures. Great, great memories though! That bach certainly was a HUGE blessing back then.... and the fact that I was trusted to go up there with all my friends when I was so young. Brilliant stuff.
So.... my little walk down memory lane. Nig has been the one who has been around through all the big things in my life. And while I can't talk to him as much now, we still always manage to just pick up and run with it, regardless of how long it's been. When I first found out about bruce meeting someone else, I ran up to Auckland to get distracted... and Nig met me in a cafe with a huge bunch of flowers, and just let me cry. We ended up on a beach walking for miles.... watching the sea gulls, just being. I think he knew that there weren't actually any words you could use. He couldn't say that everything was going to be ok, because while you know it will be, you also know that who it can take forever before you'll feel ok again. He's been wiser than that. So, I do miss him. We haven't lived in the same city in gosh, 10 years. And maybe that's why we're such good friends still? hehehe.
He says he wants to move back to Christchurch when he gets back here... I told him that would be right... move back, and to Christchurch after I've moved! haha. He said he could probably do wellington as well though.
Right... I had better get moving. Going to be late.
Funny, I didn't even have the melancholic music playing in the background while I was writing all that. Song to suit the feelings right now.... ummmmmmm.....
Some Cure would probably do it. "Friday, I'm in love" although Mr and Mrs Flloyd might be more approriate - "We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year....."
Songs will always drag me back to a place and time. Love it!
toodles.
Now I just need to get abit braver with work, take some more risks, and I guess look forward to meeting my new boss.
I take off again tomorrow. Heading up North, into what looks like a week of rain. Of course I shall remain super optomistic. I haven't talked to Greg about me calling in on my way back, but hopefully he'll be around, and I can go laze in the hot pools while I'm there. Doesn't matter what the weather is like there. It will always remind me of Canada.
I talked to Nig the other night. He just took off to South America yesterday, and won't be back in the UK for over 2 months. He was super excited about it all... doing some volutry work over there for a while, which would be so cool, then backpacking his way around. He'll be back in England in Nov to find another teaching job, and then.... we thought we would catch up over his summer. So, hopefully regardless of where we both we, we'll find somewhere to hang out! He's keen to head back to Canada... and promised that he will come and find me. I wasn't the nicest friend in the world to him. Telling him exactly how it was.... he kept telling me how busy his life was, and how much he'd been doing, and how time just zoomed away from him. I just told him it was all a choice, and a reflection of his priorities. He had been telling me that he would call me since June. And while I left him messages, and sent him txts, I never heard anything from him, except the txt to say, I'll call you next weekend.... and it would never happen. Don't get me wrong, I know what busy is like, and I can totally understand time getting away from you. I just prioritise my life differently, and will always put people ahead of things. 3 months felt like long enough to let him know that he was slack. He couldn't even get around to emailing me his address so I could post his birthday present. hahaha. Silly boy!
Anyway.... told him I still loved him, and missed him lots. Was remembering back to what we flatted together over a summer at the school. It was madness. We both lived such busy lifestyles, and would go a whole week without even seeing eachother, but come the weekends.... it was always fun to catch up. laze around outside in the sun reading. I guess we've always been comfortable with silence. Not needing to talk all the time. Our crazy trips to the Port will always be such wacky memories. Playing 500 into the wee hours of the morning. John breaking the bed when we beat Nig! hahaha.... the canoe escapade which went slightly pear shaped, when we didn't bother to check the tide. Nig and I ended up on the other side of the river dragging the canoe along behind us, as we walked up to the point. It was hillarious! A Canadian Canoe on top of the hillman was quite a picture too. Shame I have no photos of any of the adventures. Great, great memories though! That bach certainly was a HUGE blessing back then.... and the fact that I was trusted to go up there with all my friends when I was so young. Brilliant stuff.
So.... my little walk down memory lane. Nig has been the one who has been around through all the big things in my life. And while I can't talk to him as much now, we still always manage to just pick up and run with it, regardless of how long it's been. When I first found out about bruce meeting someone else, I ran up to Auckland to get distracted... and Nig met me in a cafe with a huge bunch of flowers, and just let me cry. We ended up on a beach walking for miles.... watching the sea gulls, just being. I think he knew that there weren't actually any words you could use. He couldn't say that everything was going to be ok, because while you know it will be, you also know that who it can take forever before you'll feel ok again. He's been wiser than that. So, I do miss him. We haven't lived in the same city in gosh, 10 years. And maybe that's why we're such good friends still? hehehe.
He says he wants to move back to Christchurch when he gets back here... I told him that would be right... move back, and to Christchurch after I've moved! haha. He said he could probably do wellington as well though.
Right... I had better get moving. Going to be late.
Funny, I didn't even have the melancholic music playing in the background while I was writing all that. Song to suit the feelings right now.... ummmmmmm.....
Some Cure would probably do it. "Friday, I'm in love" although Mr and Mrs Flloyd might be more approriate - "We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year....."
Songs will always drag me back to a place and time. Love it!
toodles.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
trying...
Spent yesterday curled up in a ball... well, all afternoon anyway. Totally misearble. And when I asked Mike to read me a story, I was rebuffed. Cried out for my mother... who alas, obviously didn't hear my cries. So fell asleep. When I woke it was for a phone call. I eventually stumbled out of bed to be met by such smells from the living room. Now, some of you may understand when I say that the sweet smells of dinner cooking away just made me feel worse, and I made yet another visit to the bathroom. ARHG! Took some pain killers praying that they would stay down, and I would sleep again. I didn't like my chances.... but as I lay there praying that I would not only sleep, but wake up able to go to a meeting that i had set up a while ago out in Rangiora. I woke up this morning able to move, and with absolutely no stomach pains. It was awesome. A tractor had still met with me in the night, but not to waltz, as Mike asked. I showered, pain killered up, and went out to have a great meeting.
I made the fatal error of eating when I eventually got back home, but I was starving, knowing full well that I hadn't actually kept anything down in the last 32 hours. Was a silly mistake to make. My stomach is still complaining rather loudly. And now, the pain killers have worn off.... and I need to go and buy some more. hahaha. Trials and tribulations.
And yet, I've just finished reading a journal entry about Katrina.... and how it has affected this young lady. She ended it all with the words of Brittany Dillons song from her new album....
"whatever's in front of me, help me to sing hallelujah.."
So... as I go to pick up my pain killers - because I have a car, and can drive to the grocery store, but pain killers, and then come back to my warm bed in a clean house..... let me remember that I am so blessed, and have so much more to be thankful for in my life.
Help me to sing hallelujah!
I made the fatal error of eating when I eventually got back home, but I was starving, knowing full well that I hadn't actually kept anything down in the last 32 hours. Was a silly mistake to make. My stomach is still complaining rather loudly. And now, the pain killers have worn off.... and I need to go and buy some more. hahaha. Trials and tribulations.
And yet, I've just finished reading a journal entry about Katrina.... and how it has affected this young lady. She ended it all with the words of Brittany Dillons song from her new album....
"whatever's in front of me, help me to sing hallelujah.."
So... as I go to pick up my pain killers - because I have a car, and can drive to the grocery store, but pain killers, and then come back to my warm bed in a clean house..... let me remember that I am so blessed, and have so much more to be thankful for in my life.
Help me to sing hallelujah!
Sunday, September 11, 2005
thinking....
well... took me a while, but I did get the Map of the South Island up as a link. Seems my days of writing html may have left me. hahaha. I'd love to make the time to play around some more - one of these days. I can't tell you how much I'm enjoying having my beautiful beast back up and running, and just being able to check on things, write things, pay the bills, play around with pics. How did we actually survive before the internet came and took control of our lives?
Sure I guess it does mean less human contact, but at the same time... what about all my buddies out there in the great old world of cyber?
OK - so as well as the link to the beloved south island I threw in one for my yahoo pics. Figured it would be easier to just put up a whole lot of albums there, and people could see what they like. Still have a few to get up there... my last trip and some from the farm. I'll get there
About to head off to the movies with Miss Jacx. Queen Sheeba's Pearls is calling us. I'm dressed like a sloth, and quite happy to sloth my way there, but suspect that perhaps I should make abit more of an effort. It's quite cool the way movies can be either a dress up, or dress down event. I haven't been to see a show in ages, and do miss that whole excitement. The getting dressed up for something special.
Later gators.
Sure I guess it does mean less human contact, but at the same time... what about all my buddies out there in the great old world of cyber?
OK - so as well as the link to the beloved south island I threw in one for my yahoo pics. Figured it would be easier to just put up a whole lot of albums there, and people could see what they like. Still have a few to get up there... my last trip and some from the farm. I'll get there
About to head off to the movies with Miss Jacx. Queen Sheeba's Pearls is calling us. I'm dressed like a sloth, and quite happy to sloth my way there, but suspect that perhaps I should make abit more of an effort. It's quite cool the way movies can be either a dress up, or dress down event. I haven't been to see a show in ages, and do miss that whole excitement. The getting dressed up for something special.
Later gators.
Saturday, September 10, 2005
another week...
You know, for a saturday the day is going quite slowly. It's like it's almost standing still, and I am finding time to get everything done. It's nice.
Onto laundry load 3 for the day, another one to go after this one. New sheets on the bed, the room still a bomb site, and the car in dire need of a wash and clean out. Especially since it's going in for a service on Monday. hahaha. They'd love to see it looking like this, I'm sure!
Hmmmm... I still can't get posts to load onto here. ARHG! Super annoying. Any idea anyone?
Got some cool shots through the Lindis, at the lakes, and even a couple at Arrowtown. Yes... I will try and find a map of NZ so that I can link the pics to the places. Does make perfect sense!
Was up the hill on my own this morning. Got distracted this morning though, so while I was up at 8, I didn't get up there till almost 11. Called in to see my friend Jase at the Super store on the way... and got to talking about music, and a concert that I really need to get moving on if it's going to happen. November is just around the corner. ARHG! What was I thinking?!
Anyway.... it was nice to see him, and hear the news. Feel very out of it with all things music. I blame the lack of computer keeping me in the dark. Then I could also blame my job. hahaha.... maybe I just need to make more of an effort?!
So... got up the hill eventually and so enjoyed my mocha and flan thing. I was so late they had run out of brioches for me! :(
Think I may have the house to myself again tonight. How's that... go away for a week, and come home to an empty house, just when I thought all sanity had flown out the door - it gets worse.
I've got loads to do though... so hardly a bad thing. Do feel as though it's easier to just sit in my room and issolate myself from everything when I get home. Part of the whole... I'm too tired to deal with things, and it's just become habbit to be alone. Does that make sense?
Anyway.... going to play around with pics, and hopefully get a link sorted so I don't have to bomb them all on this thing. You guys can decide whether you want to see what I'm doing.
OH... and I guess I will try and update on the whole trip thing too. There was a hitch hiker this week who is well worth mentioning. :)
Peace and joy
Onto laundry load 3 for the day, another one to go after this one. New sheets on the bed, the room still a bomb site, and the car in dire need of a wash and clean out. Especially since it's going in for a service on Monday. hahaha. They'd love to see it looking like this, I'm sure!
Hmmmm... I still can't get posts to load onto here. ARHG! Super annoying. Any idea anyone?
Got some cool shots through the Lindis, at the lakes, and even a couple at Arrowtown. Yes... I will try and find a map of NZ so that I can link the pics to the places. Does make perfect sense!
Was up the hill on my own this morning. Got distracted this morning though, so while I was up at 8, I didn't get up there till almost 11. Called in to see my friend Jase at the Super store on the way... and got to talking about music, and a concert that I really need to get moving on if it's going to happen. November is just around the corner. ARHG! What was I thinking?!
Anyway.... it was nice to see him, and hear the news. Feel very out of it with all things music. I blame the lack of computer keeping me in the dark. Then I could also blame my job. hahaha.... maybe I just need to make more of an effort?!
So... got up the hill eventually and so enjoyed my mocha and flan thing. I was so late they had run out of brioches for me! :(
Think I may have the house to myself again tonight. How's that... go away for a week, and come home to an empty house, just when I thought all sanity had flown out the door - it gets worse.
I've got loads to do though... so hardly a bad thing. Do feel as though it's easier to just sit in my room and issolate myself from everything when I get home. Part of the whole... I'm too tired to deal with things, and it's just become habbit to be alone. Does that make sense?
Anyway.... going to play around with pics, and hopefully get a link sorted so I don't have to bomb them all on this thing. You guys can decide whether you want to see what I'm doing.
OH... and I guess I will try and update on the whole trip thing too. There was a hitch hiker this week who is well worth mentioning. :)
Peace and joy
Sunday, September 04, 2005
dawned
just realised that it's been 10 years since my grandmother died (my namesake) and almost a year since my nana died. probably has a little to do with my mood? but bizarre how everything else has been so bad. I'm pretty sure that I'm not projecting any of this onto the people around me.
Who knows?
maybe I need to start writing in my grateful journal again.... i know i still have much to be thankful for, it just feels pretty burried right now.
bring on the daffodils of tomorrow.... the cherries are just starting to come out along Hagley park. Hoping that I'm not going to miss the one glorious week where they are all out along this one stretch. It's just awesome to walk along there.... of course when the blossom starts to fall, that looks pretty impressive too. Jacx is hanging out for the tulips.
Who knows?
maybe I need to start writing in my grateful journal again.... i know i still have much to be thankful for, it just feels pretty burried right now.
bring on the daffodils of tomorrow.... the cherries are just starting to come out along Hagley park. Hoping that I'm not going to miss the one glorious week where they are all out along this one stretch. It's just awesome to walk along there.... of course when the blossom starts to fall, that looks pretty impressive too. Jacx is hanging out for the tulips.
blah
what a day.
and a way to end the week!
it's all actually quite beyond me. I'm now sure how any of the pear shaped happenings came about? asking people how they are seems to be the wrong thing for me to do. i've had several people bite my head off, and been told to mind my own business by one person and told that I'm now officially "hated". for anyone who knows me, that's about the worst thing you could say to me, especially without telling me what I've done. in this case, haven't a clue. In actual fact, if anyone was going to say that, it would be me following what they had actually said to me. I don't get it.
All that came into my head was to apologise for whatever it was I'd done.
thank goodness it's monday tomorrow, and a new week can start. it can't be worse than this one.
better go pack, and get life sorted.
hope everyone has had a better weekend!
much love xx
and a way to end the week!
it's all actually quite beyond me. I'm now sure how any of the pear shaped happenings came about? asking people how they are seems to be the wrong thing for me to do. i've had several people bite my head off, and been told to mind my own business by one person and told that I'm now officially "hated". for anyone who knows me, that's about the worst thing you could say to me, especially without telling me what I've done. in this case, haven't a clue. In actual fact, if anyone was going to say that, it would be me following what they had actually said to me. I don't get it.
All that came into my head was to apologise for whatever it was I'd done.
thank goodness it's monday tomorrow, and a new week can start. it can't be worse than this one.
better go pack, and get life sorted.
hope everyone has had a better weekend!
much love xx
trouble..
I can't seem to upload images on my blog. Frustrating. So, back to picasa I go, and hello. Crazy stuff. Such is life I guess.
So... now I can go nuts! :)
So... now I can go nuts! :)
Saturday, September 03, 2005
saturday morning coffee..
Stumped... I keep trying to upload a picture of the view we didn't quite get this morning, while sipping away at our coffees, eating the decadent brioche, filled with chocolate, and berries.
No wonder I'm feeling as full as I am now... though several hours later.
Ains and I were up there for ages today... yaking about all there is to yak about. Was good to catch up with her. Jackie was off doing her training today, so didn't get up there with us. Poor thing had to be at the airport before 6 this morning, though, in retrospect - the girl was off to Brisbain for the day. How classic does that sound. Yeah.... I was in Australia for the day. hahahaha. Love it. She's super excited about her new job, and just raves about the training. Sounds like she's with a great bunch of people. She's all excited about the idea of a flat trip. Yes... we're off somewhere sunny. hahahaa.... of course, all way too poor to go anywhere just yet! Vanuatu isn't going anywhere though... of course, don't want to head that way during hurricane season. So, it can wait. There is always melbourne for a weekend. :)
Feels like it's nap time in my world, and I know I need to just make the most of these moments when they stumble along. If I don't sleep when I feel like it, I'm going to regret it next week.
Blurry eyed, and sniffly. Hay fever season is here with great gusto. That's what happens when you get such a mild winter. Shame about the lack of snow for all the skiing enthusiasts, but I don't think many people are minding the spring like weather already - and I know the lambs are loving it. Looked gorgeous with the lambs and daffodils out while I was driving around.
Right.... since I can't figure out the computer, guess I'll go snooze for abit, and tackle it all later on today.
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
No wonder I'm feeling as full as I am now... though several hours later.
Ains and I were up there for ages today... yaking about all there is to yak about. Was good to catch up with her. Jackie was off doing her training today, so didn't get up there with us. Poor thing had to be at the airport before 6 this morning, though, in retrospect - the girl was off to Brisbain for the day. How classic does that sound. Yeah.... I was in Australia for the day. hahahaha. Love it. She's super excited about her new job, and just raves about the training. Sounds like she's with a great bunch of people. She's all excited about the idea of a flat trip. Yes... we're off somewhere sunny. hahahaa.... of course, all way too poor to go anywhere just yet! Vanuatu isn't going anywhere though... of course, don't want to head that way during hurricane season. So, it can wait. There is always melbourne for a weekend. :)
Feels like it's nap time in my world, and I know I need to just make the most of these moments when they stumble along. If I don't sleep when I feel like it, I'm going to regret it next week.
Blurry eyed, and sniffly. Hay fever season is here with great gusto. That's what happens when you get such a mild winter. Shame about the lack of snow for all the skiing enthusiasts, but I don't think many people are minding the spring like weather already - and I know the lambs are loving it. Looked gorgeous with the lambs and daffodils out while I was driving around.
Right.... since I can't figure out the computer, guess I'll go snooze for abit, and tackle it all later on today.
Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Friday, September 02, 2005
shades of...
So... as I was driving up to Blenheim, the beloved coast just outside of Kaikoura put on quite a display for me. It was a great night..... peaceful, but I was still super tired from the 4am airport trip the day before. Hence the evening photo really. I should have been in Blenheim by this time. hahaha.
Arrived home late this afternoon - driving back from the West Coast, which is just like another world. It really is something else. So green...and, well.... wet!
It rained pretty much the whole time I was there, and the whole drive home....
I guess that means that I don't have to wash the car tomorrow though? The inside is a dissaster area though, to put it nicely.
I think I may have shocked Jackie when she got into it before. By the end of the week I honestly feel like my life is beyond controlling, and I just kind of give up, figuring I can deal with the mess when I get home.
Guess that means that I had better deal with it tomorrow. The idea that I may try and take off on the next week with it being the same is just insane! :)
The last week away was probably the toughest. No idea why, really? I got kind of grumpy - at least the most grumpy that I've felt on the job, though I think it was all just me being lonely, and not enjoying the idea of being away all of next week as well. Crazy how I let myself get wound up about something that wasn't even here yet though!
Feeling much better now that I'm home, and I know that I get to curl up into my very own bed tonight.... with my pillows.... and, I get to sleep until I want to get up too. :) and to top it all off even more..... I get to go up the hill and have my breakfast fix. Ahhhhhh... the simple things in life really do make it ALL GOOD!
I did try and play around with my camera while zooming around. It was a little more rushed than normal. I guess driving down the coast was an interesting way to do it. Missed not heading off to see Greg in Hanmer. Would have enjoyed a soak in the hot pools, that's for sure!
I'm up in Nelson again in 3 weeks, so will go through Hanmer on my way back then. My boss is coming up with me, which should be interesting. Good thing he and I get on quite well. I'm sure we'll have a good time while he's down.
Right..... I've got to go sleep. The plot must be found before I can wander up the hill tomorrow. Think I'll be going on my lonesome tomorrow too. Jackie is off to Oz for the day. HAHAHA!
Madness.
toodles
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