and so....

Would you believe that I'm back again, so quickly.

It's been an exhausting day.... yeah, I've been sitting here for much of the afternoon.... but emotionally, I feel as though I've been put through the wringer several times over. I'm not quite sure I understand what it is that I'm having to deal with. Or maybe it's that I just want to avoid analysing myself for a change?

Obviously there are huger issues there than I would care to know about, or wish to acknowledge. Typical, huh. In order to get through it all, I know I'm going to have to face up to it all. hehe... so another couple of weeks of feeling blah, I'm sure.

I was asked the question yesterday - do I not feel loved at all?

What a question..... but worse.... my answer.......

What is it to be loved? What is it to feel loved?

I can't believe that this is going out there.  Maybe that's the great thing.... out into the void....
I'm just getting it out of my system. I hate the idea that people might feel sorry for me, or want to try and help me - I don't know how that's possible. I don't think there is anything that anyone can do, and I don't want that. I just want to amble on.... and figure things out slowly by myself. Thankgoodness I do have people out there who continue to listen to me, and put up with my ramblings.
I do have much to be so thankful for, and right now, I need to get over this - whatever it is, and focus on all that is out there! Life is good! :o)

So... into the void.....