Thursday, March 31, 2005

long time... no see.....

I don't think there is any sane way for me to catch up.... especially when it's getting later here, and I have another huge day tomorrow - YAY for Friday though!

Easter.... what a fantastic weekend! It was supposed to be spent a little differently, but everything always has a way of working out for the best.

I ended up shopping on Saturday - which for me is quite an odd and very infrequent event in my life. But Jackie and I had a mission on our hands, and so we set out with great gusto! Of course breakfast up on the hill was first on our list of things to do.
From there it was into town... and the madness. You'd think that a day without any shops being open would have little effect on the people in the big metropolis of Christchurch, however... it would seem that one day is just sends everyone into shopping mode in a huge way. So, we trampled up and down the streets looking for bargins.

I found some spunky shoes. Yeah - truly spunky!! :) OK... so they are sneakers, and so practical that any of my girly friends would be dissapointed in me.... but I love them!!
Also went and grabbed a book on Tramps in the South Island... (Hikes for all you North Americans out there). So, time to get totally motivated, and get out there. Why would I start trying to motivate myself when it would seem that winter has begun to settle in? Insane!

I think that was it for mad purchases - oh... besides the awesome winter sheets. So snuggled up and warm now with my winter duvet and sheets on! :) It's the simple things that keep me happy.

Sunday I cruised out to Hanmer Springs. It was the first big drive for Molly. YAY!!! Took off after church, and had arranged to meet up with some friends at the hot pools. The trip started in a rather bizzare way, and slightly blonder moment, where I completely forgot which way to go to get to Hanmer. This was quickly rectified, and I was on my way with the music blaring. It was bliss to be on the open road!
Got up to Hanmer with some pretty miserable drizzle going on... and discovered that ever man and their dog had the same idea as me this weekend. OK - so it was Easter weekend... what was I expecting?!
Stood in line to get into the hot pools, and just ahhhhhhh... soaked in everything around me. It was gorgeous!
Of course I had no idea how I was going to find anyone there, and had pretty much resigned myself to believing the day would be spent by myself, which wasn't all bad in my books.

Eventually I did find the others. They didn't get up there till much later. So splashed around with them for a while.

After leaving the hot pools I headed off in search of a friends house. Greg bought a house up there about a year ago, and I hadn't even seen it yet! Couldn't even say I was heading over to see his new house any more! Quite sad.
It's a very cool little place, with a great fire that was blazzing away. Perfect little place to run away to in the weekends. I did warn him that I would be visiting. Perfect - now I have someone to visit in the mountains, and Jimbo and Kym at the beach! :) Life is good!

Drove home after a coffee and catch up, and slept pretty soundly that night.... Monday....woke up bright and early, to a gorgeous sunrise, so I jumped out of bed, and went and climbed the hill. I had thought I would get to the top and have a coffee... but I didn't feel like one... so kept going. It was stunning. A really crisp and super clear morning. I would probably be far more inspired to do those early morning jaunts if it was cloudy.
We'll see... maybe I'll do it again this weekend.

So - the weekend of catching up with ben didn't happen.... and while I was so looking forward to hanging out with him, it will have to wait for a couple of weeks, once he's finished his job for the season. Who knows what he's going to get upto over the next 6 months? He said something about Turkey.

OH... other news... flatmate Catherine came home tonight with a super sparkly diamond ring! Yes... the bLING she has been after is on her finger. Aparently everyone in the cafe even missed seeing Brendon down on his knees in full proposal. Totally funny!
They are both super excited about the up and coming wedding.... in June!
So... shall be looking for a new flatmate shortlly...... know of anyone?

That's it... bed waits!

Be well... xx

Monday, March 07, 2005

all my soul.....

have had a night at home by myself, which is often an interesting occassion. I relish in my time alone, and yet - the thoughts that so often overwhelm my head come crashing like waves on a steep, empty beach.

The sand is left battered, the seaweed bruised.... and my emotions.... scared?

I'm just tired, and have to remember to get up early to pick up Tony from the airport. He's left me messages asking if I could still love him?

After the last curious discussion that we had..... I'm left wondering about so much.

remembered the conversation I had with my brother Tamati an awfully long time ago now, when he was super upset, and it all coincided with me having just broken up with bruce. He was lying on his back, crying.... and the only wise words I had for him.... not to lie and cry, cause the water would run into his ears, and it wasn't good for him.
Yeah - totally what older sisters are for, right!
I haven't spoken to him since I was up there. And I guess I'm having an I miss you moment. Will have to give him a call tomorrow.

Talked to Dad today. Spoke to him on Friday and he was super stressed then. Today was no different. Probably more so. I hate it. They havea horse show on this weekend, and I was wondering about flying up for it to help out. Madness.... but I haven't talked to mum about it. Doubt that I'd find a decent flight that would make it worthwhile. Still do wish that I was around though to help out.

They seem to be struggling with way too much, and it doesn't sound like Alex is around at all these days, although dad did say he comes home and mows the lawn before he dissapears again.
I feel like I need to ring them all up and see what's going on. Encourage them to help out when they can. To not be all self absorbed, as I know that my brothers can be.


No stars either. hehehe

off I go to sing the blues. till the sun rises, and I realise, actually..... life is good once more! (it's not really bad, promise!)

Sunday, March 06, 2005


So... life is back to manic I guess in so many ways.

Crazy winds today.... the kind that really do turn the people of christchurch into utter nutters! Seriously. It is still pretty humid and hot, and just makes for a night of tossing and turning. I was so sleepy earlier tonight, and now.... after playing for abit I'm back to being wide awake.

Kind of worse cause I finished my book. hahaha
Need to find something else to curl up with.

No exciting news from the weekend to report. Not enough sleep, but that's mostly due to the all nighter pulled off on Friday night. Woke up just after 11 and couldn't get back to sleep. Ended up getting up and sending off a couple of job applications. Hopefully they all made perfect sense in my sleep deprived state?!
We shall see. It's actually kind of exciting to think about the possibilities. I'm so looking forward to getting out of my job now. Will be good to say GOODBYE, and move on with all that is out there waiting. YEAH!!!

My flatmate Jackie has just returned from church. Went to go see the "Heavenly Man" Brother Yun, who honestly has the most amazing testimony! If you want a good book to read - go grab that one!!
I say that, and I'm only up to Page 30. hehe. (What was I saying about not having a book before?)
Jackie is just in awe, and totally pumping about what was said, and just the whole faith moving story that came with the night.
I had a prayer meeting here for the Life FM people.... so couldn't go.... but still so cool to hear about it afterwards!

It's actually been a pretty amazing GOD day. Lots of little things happening, that would see so out of the ordinary for so many people - but I look and just see God's hand. I don't know where to start on that one. He's challenging me, and just bringing some amazing people across my path.
I guess the whole sitting up the other night made me do some thinking, and just got me on my knees with some things. I've been doing "nothing" about my situation for so long... and while the amble hasn't been all bad - it's like - WHAT AM I WANTING TO DO????
And why am I not just getting out there and getting into it?

I'm prattling here.... too many thoughts.... too many places I could start, and no idea how to get it all down.
Makes no sense, I know.

Talked to Nigel last night. Both keen for the Canada thing - but guess it depends on what we're both doing. He's looking at going to Malaysia for a while to teach, after doing more travelling - heading to South America for some volunteer work, some time in Africa, tripping around Europe with his parents and sister.... so Canada may not be on the cards.... but would certainly like it to happen!

Of course I need the new job to make it a reality!!

Big question for the day.....

If your income increases:

Do your living expensses increase - or does your giving??

I do have so much..... blessed in abundance.

Anyway.... it has been all good.....

I'd better go do some reading for this assignment which is due in a couple of weeks. Yay. Still need to sort out T.Coll as well. I may still be able to get some papers done this semester - since they are on section now. YAY! Will have to get an email away tomorrow.
Finally got the papers on Friday though. Would be so good to get that finished. And who knows... maybe I'll head over to England to teach for a while????


bed sounds like a better idea right now.

But first - other thoughts.... loving this one.

" Now unto Him who is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, above all you ask or think according to His mighty power that works in us".
Ephesians 3:20

The power of the Almighty, Omnipotent God is in your by Faith. Why, then, do you find yourself settling for a humdrum life if the power of God resides in you?
It's because you have allowed the false limitations on life into your mind and mouth. If you can't fathom abundance in your life, you won't believe that God has the power to provide abundantly for you. Your small thinking will prevent the power of God from working in your life.
We as Christians, think too small.
Wouldn't it be if you were the first person in the entire world whom God rebuked and disciplined for being audacious in your requests to Him? Can you hear God saying "Well you presumtuous thing, you! ou want too much; you believe for too much; you think too big. Who do you think you are?"
That won't happen. Read your Bible. Jesus'admonitions sounded more like this: "You little, shallow-minded, pitiful people. I am amazed that you don't have any faith. You don't have any boldness, and you won't ask of me great things." Some of your are making God angry, and it's not because of some deep, dark sin. It's because you don't believe in God's infinite capacity to bring about greatness into your life.

Taken from Live Full Die Enpty by Rick Godwin. Awesome book!! and guess what - I'm guilty of the above!!!
Time to get an attitude check.

peace out